an update finally
okay, i know that i have been soooo incredibly neglectful with updating my ljl this past summer, but i seriously haven't felt the need to vent to any sort of journal. now that i am feeling a sort of numbness and void approaching and not to mention a slight hysteria, i feel it would be in my best interest to write a bit about what i am feeling since i am sooo overcome with emotions right now. i feel almost like my life is ticking away, with only a few days left of bliss and then i ascend into purgatory or something as bad. i know that i am completely exagerating and probably making things worse than they really will be but i just have gotten used to being around my love all the time, and on september 1st, she will be ripped away from me once again. i know that i should treasure the time that we have had together, and of course i do, i value it more than anything in the whole world, but i just can't face the month of september without being able to hold, kiss, touch, and cuddle with my baby girl....the thought of it fills my eyes with tears instantly and reminds me of my weakness and vulnerability.
i have had the most amazing summer of my life and i will elaborate all about it, when i am not getting ready to leave work, with 10 minutes left. but for right now, i can say only this:
if you find a connection with someone that seems too good to be true and is so surreal and incredible, don't let it go, treasure it. it is rare, like a precious stone or gem, and i used to think it only happened to people in their dreams and fantasies, but i have been proven wrong this summer. i have spent the past 3 months with the love of my life, the center of my universe, my sun, moon, and stars and i can't even find enough words to express my love and devotion towards my Charlotte. i feel that my love for her has moved into a new level, that is so powerful and intense, that even 1 minute without her can be suffocating. so, take my advice, if you love someone and they love you back, don't lose that. take advantage of it and make amazing memories that you will remember for the rest of your life.
My baby girl, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and all of the memories that we have formed together this past summer and in february have made me so incredibly happy and caused me to love you even more than i ever thought possible. you are the most intelligent person i have ever met and your beauty is boundless, inside and out. if you looked up perfection in the dictionary, there would be a picture of my angel.
we have to be strong for the duration of the time that we will be apart but i have more faith in us than ever because of all the time we have spent together. i just want to make even more memories with you and build my life with you by my side. you are my angeland i adore you, please never doubt my love for you. Je t'aime mon ange.
i have had the most amazing summer of my life and i will elaborate all about it, when i am not getting ready to leave work, with 10 minutes left. but for right now, i can say only this:
if you find a connection with someone that seems too good to be true and is so surreal and incredible, don't let it go, treasure it. it is rare, like a precious stone or gem, and i used to think it only happened to people in their dreams and fantasies, but i have been proven wrong this summer. i have spent the past 3 months with the love of my life, the center of my universe, my sun, moon, and stars and i can't even find enough words to express my love and devotion towards my Charlotte. i feel that my love for her has moved into a new level, that is so powerful and intense, that even 1 minute without her can be suffocating. so, take my advice, if you love someone and they love you back, don't lose that. take advantage of it and make amazing memories that you will remember for the rest of your life.
My baby girl, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and all of the memories that we have formed together this past summer and in february have made me so incredibly happy and caused me to love you even more than i ever thought possible. you are the most intelligent person i have ever met and your beauty is boundless, inside and out. if you looked up perfection in the dictionary, there would be a picture of my angel.
we have to be strong for the duration of the time that we will be apart but i have more faith in us than ever because of all the time we have spent together. i just want to make even more memories with you and build my life with you by my side. you are my angeland i adore you, please never doubt my love for you. Je t'aime mon ange.