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Well, I believe some congratulations are in order. I have no doubt that you all will become wonderful captains.
Hm~ I suppose that third seat is as good as mine now♥
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As his friend I know I should be happy. I have to be. That's what friends do, isn't it? Support decisions... even if it's wrong? I don't like this. I don't like it one bit. In fact, I'm sure I can honestly say I've never hated something some much in my entire life. He's leaving. In two days. It's not as if I'm not proud of him, I am. Really...
It's like I still can't understand that it's happened. At times I feel foolish for feeling betrayed, it's not as if he's leaving the whole of Soul Society... just moving ten divisions away. So why does it feel further away than a lifetime?
I can still remember coming here and getting to the Eleventh hand over fist just for the soul purpose of following Zaraki Kenpachi. How he... we... had so easily pledged loyalties to this man. And now it's over? Like that? I don't get it.
Everything is changing so rapidly, I feel like I'm getting left behind and I'll never catch up. Ever since he told me, I felt it... the distance start to grow. And then I made the stupid decision to tell him my most closely guarded secret. I shouldn't have let anger get in the way of my judgment. Telling him about my zanpakuto at that point in time was also a lapse and just drove the wedge deeper. We've barely spoken since then.
And now, he's a captain. A captain. Madarame-taichou~ It sounds foreign. I hope he doesn't expect me to call him that. I can't do it.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Perhaps I'm overreacting. But right now all I feel like doing is acting like a child and pitching a fit over this.
Hm~ I suppose that third seat is as good as mine now♥
[PRIVATE]
As his friend I know I should be happy. I have to be. That's what friends do, isn't it? Support decisions... even if it's wrong? I don't like this. I don't like it one bit. In fact, I'm sure I can honestly say I've never hated something some much in my entire life. He's leaving. In two days. It's not as if I'm not proud of him, I am. Really...
It's like I still can't understand that it's happened. At times I feel foolish for feeling betrayed, it's not as if he's leaving the whole of Soul Society... just moving ten divisions away. So why does it feel further away than a lifetime?
I can still remember coming here and getting to the Eleventh hand over fist just for the soul purpose of following Zaraki Kenpachi. How he... we... had so easily pledged loyalties to this man. And now it's over? Like that? I don't get it.
Everything is changing so rapidly, I feel like I'm getting left behind and I'll never catch up. Ever since he told me, I felt it... the distance start to grow. And then I made the stupid decision to tell him my most closely guarded secret. I shouldn't have let anger get in the way of my judgment. Telling him about my zanpakuto at that point in time was also a lapse and just drove the wedge deeper. We've barely spoken since then.
And now, he's a captain. A captain. Madarame-taichou~ It sounds foreign. I hope he doesn't expect me to call him that. I can't do it.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Perhaps I'm overreacting. But right now all I feel like doing is acting like a child and pitching a fit over this.