news: mostly good
my mom is going to talk to a guy at the bank for me to see if this $30 overdraft fee can be taken off, and is also calling about this telemarketing incident that took place causing the $30 overdraft fee. fucking telemarketers calling while i'm still half asleep. assholes. and i applied to be one. rough.
i've been feeling a bit, off lately. dan and i had talked on the phone for a long time the other night. we mostly talked about victoria and ed. i actually don't remember much of what was said, i just remember feeling incrediably let down. though, it seems that most of what dan has said about ed lately has been getting him [ed] in trouble with me. whatever.
i took a nap at ed's house last night. we woke up at 4:30am to find that dan, megan and caleb were still awake down stairs. i got a little pissed off at dan earlier, and then was forced to get a ride home with him. pride level took damage points. last night sucked anyways.
in the past several days, i've noticed that there are those people who you're friends with, that drag you down. i'm not close friends to any of these people, and i hope to stay that way. trust me when i say you probably don't know who you are (bfyg and sunday crew: though i don't see you a lot anymore, i'm not talking about you; none of my other "cliques" are included in this either). though it wouldn't really affect me a whole lot either way. but, we all have our issues.
so, tomarrow i see ed. though i'd much rather spend time with him alone. that hasn't happened in quite sometime, and it's not really just because his car broke either. but, we need to spend time with other friends, too. we've had a little inter-mixing of my friends now as well.
morose? is that the word i'm looking for? i think so. it's not suiting to one of my normal disposition. i wouldn't say i'm sunny, but rather, more lively and slightly more energetic. this is what i get for being at home, jobless, carless, liscenseless, etc+less.
anyways, i want a hug. i suppose i should go to church in the morning. there has been no "good" theology in my life for the last semester or so. though, if i weren't so lazy to walk across the attic and pick up my bible, it wouldn't be so. i'm a lame christian.
"this is not a black and white world. the colors are swirled." ~ live, from the album "mental jewlery."
it's time to get out of this funk.
i've been feeling a bit, off lately. dan and i had talked on the phone for a long time the other night. we mostly talked about victoria and ed. i actually don't remember much of what was said, i just remember feeling incrediably let down. though, it seems that most of what dan has said about ed lately has been getting him [ed] in trouble with me. whatever.
i took a nap at ed's house last night. we woke up at 4:30am to find that dan, megan and caleb were still awake down stairs. i got a little pissed off at dan earlier, and then was forced to get a ride home with him. pride level took damage points. last night sucked anyways.
in the past several days, i've noticed that there are those people who you're friends with, that drag you down. i'm not close friends to any of these people, and i hope to stay that way. trust me when i say you probably don't know who you are (bfyg and sunday crew: though i don't see you a lot anymore, i'm not talking about you; none of my other "cliques" are included in this either). though it wouldn't really affect me a whole lot either way. but, we all have our issues.
so, tomarrow i see ed. though i'd much rather spend time with him alone. that hasn't happened in quite sometime, and it's not really just because his car broke either. but, we need to spend time with other friends, too. we've had a little inter-mixing of my friends now as well.
morose? is that the word i'm looking for? i think so. it's not suiting to one of my normal disposition. i wouldn't say i'm sunny, but rather, more lively and slightly more energetic. this is what i get for being at home, jobless, carless, liscenseless, etc+less.
anyways, i want a hug. i suppose i should go to church in the morning. there has been no "good" theology in my life for the last semester or so. though, if i weren't so lazy to walk across the attic and pick up my bible, it wouldn't be so. i'm a lame christian.
"this is not a black and white world. the colors are swirled." ~ live, from the album "mental jewlery."
it's time to get out of this funk.