an update
so i've been writing in this livejournal since 2002. I've kind of slowed down on the amount of posts after that first year or two, but to be honest, i really love this journal more than any other crap like myspace, or facebook, or whatever. i was going to talk about how great it is to not have advertising on here, but that ended today. haha. irony. i also just wanted to make a post that was about life, and everything going on, because i realized that i don't really do that too often anymore. its sad. i really love going back and looking at old entries for the same date as it is now, and seeing what i was doing a year ago, or two years ago..etc. its strange and crazy to see how far i've come. well, i don't want to really lose the abiity to do that, so i've decided that i'm going to try and keep this thing updated... here goes;
i've haven't been in classes lately because of chemotherapy and whatnot, but yesterday i started trying to go back. i went to chapel, and then theology, and i talked to my teacher about what i can do to make up for all the time i've missed. we began to work something out, and i planned to continue doing that with teachers today. well, i lost my beard over easter break, while i was with troy in michigan (we went to rob bell's church... it was good), and i had to shave it off when we returned. i could barely handle it, i didn't even like looking in the mirror without me having a beard. its been over a year i believe, since i've done a clean shave like this. well, anyway, today the rest of the hair went. I took a shower and about half of it fell out, so i looked like some sort of old, balding man. i took the clippers to it this morning, and i officially have no hair whatsoever now. i hate it. i hate it so much, and i haven't left my room since it happened. i really didn't expect it to be such a big deal. but once i shaved, i really just wanted to break down and start crying. i don't know, being sick and all is just so strange. some days, i just feel completely normal. other days it just hits me, and i realize how crazy things are. i just get overwhelmed, and want to start over. anyway... i went to this restaurant called bambino's last nite with stephanie. its a little restaurant at like a dead end in the back of some neighborhood. it was pretty funny, and the food was real good. after that we saw 'walk the line' for 2 bucks at some little theater. it was a real good movie, although i felt like it left a lot out. but i guess you had to cut a lot to get it in the right time frame. johnny cash had a pretty crazy life.
i'll probably do a lot of nothing til tomorrow now, since i really don't want to leave this room... ugh
i had a dream about being back home at church, and i was at thirddegree, and basically everyone was there... including some older kids who don't go any more, and they were all worshipping God, and danny's friend jared was there.. but he was a back up singer, and he kept doing michael jackson moves on stage (mind you, we were now in a really big building, and had a huge stage). danny had a fake moustache on, and some weird outfit, i don't know. but i think the key to the dream was everyone was really just enjoying it, and worshipping God, and it seemed like everything was going good. it was a good feeling. I'm glad to be home for the summer at least. it should be good.
i've haven't been in classes lately because of chemotherapy and whatnot, but yesterday i started trying to go back. i went to chapel, and then theology, and i talked to my teacher about what i can do to make up for all the time i've missed. we began to work something out, and i planned to continue doing that with teachers today. well, i lost my beard over easter break, while i was with troy in michigan (we went to rob bell's church... it was good), and i had to shave it off when we returned. i could barely handle it, i didn't even like looking in the mirror without me having a beard. its been over a year i believe, since i've done a clean shave like this. well, anyway, today the rest of the hair went. I took a shower and about half of it fell out, so i looked like some sort of old, balding man. i took the clippers to it this morning, and i officially have no hair whatsoever now. i hate it. i hate it so much, and i haven't left my room since it happened. i really didn't expect it to be such a big deal. but once i shaved, i really just wanted to break down and start crying. i don't know, being sick and all is just so strange. some days, i just feel completely normal. other days it just hits me, and i realize how crazy things are. i just get overwhelmed, and want to start over. anyway... i went to this restaurant called bambino's last nite with stephanie. its a little restaurant at like a dead end in the back of some neighborhood. it was pretty funny, and the food was real good. after that we saw 'walk the line' for 2 bucks at some little theater. it was a real good movie, although i felt like it left a lot out. but i guess you had to cut a lot to get it in the right time frame. johnny cash had a pretty crazy life.
i'll probably do a lot of nothing til tomorrow now, since i really don't want to leave this room... ugh
i had a dream about being back home at church, and i was at thirddegree, and basically everyone was there... including some older kids who don't go any more, and they were all worshipping God, and danny's friend jared was there.. but he was a back up singer, and he kept doing michael jackson moves on stage (mind you, we were now in a really big building, and had a huge stage). danny had a fake moustache on, and some weird outfit, i don't know. but i think the key to the dream was everyone was really just enjoying it, and worshipping God, and it seemed like everything was going good. it was a good feeling. I'm glad to be home for the summer at least. it should be good.