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weird dream this morning. i was on a job interview. and started talking to the secretary, and got one of those feelings like she was really the one who was interviewing me. but she was asking me all of these questions that sounded like they were tricks. and i woke up feeling incredibly anxious and ill-prepared.
what does it mean? well maybe it has something to do with the mountains of homework i have not been able to force myself to do for the past 3 days! why the hell am i just sitting around doing nothing, except occasionally feeling sick about the homework i need to do?
argh. i really hate this useless, pathetic side of me. i'm going to call it lumpy. i hate lumpy. why won't lumpy get to work?
and speaking of work work, i really want to quit. they're making me do all this reporting stuff which i really really hate. i mean, i like messing around with spreadsheets and formulas, and making things easy, but then after that, i am strictly hands off. i don't want to analyze. i don't care about margins.
i'm going to go do my laundry. maybe that will trigger productive-gal.
what does it mean? well maybe it has something to do with the mountains of homework i have not been able to force myself to do for the past 3 days! why the hell am i just sitting around doing nothing, except occasionally feeling sick about the homework i need to do?
argh. i really hate this useless, pathetic side of me. i'm going to call it lumpy. i hate lumpy. why won't lumpy get to work?
and speaking of work work, i really want to quit. they're making me do all this reporting stuff which i really really hate. i mean, i like messing around with spreadsheets and formulas, and making things easy, but then after that, i am strictly hands off. i don't want to analyze. i don't care about margins.
i'm going to go do my laundry. maybe that will trigger productive-gal.