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so ive been cleaning out my room since ive gotten back and its really really depressing. Ive done things in the last few days that isnt me. Ive changed and its horrible i didnt want to be this kind of person. it really feels like the valley has already cast me aside. one of my friends warned me about this but i didnt believe it would happen this fast. but it has. im coming back to the valley a week after school starts for the beach boys concert at the casino but i dont know if anyone will want to see me. coming back from europe it doesnt seem like anyone noticed i was gone. i mean i didnt expect them to stop their lives for me and worship me. but i havent seen the majority of my friends and none of them are trying to see me. its just after having months gone at school are these people even gonna remember my name? i dont know if they will or not. well i have to get back to cleaning the faster the duty the faster the pain.