あたし・・・シャイな人かな？
Last Friday marks the 6th time this one co-worker of mine has told me that there was a "discussion" about me with a group of my other co-workers. Nothing bad, but apparently they sometimes bring me up in conversation and I become the "hot topic" if you know what I mean.
Apparently, this is what I was told, a lot of them can't quite wrap their head around me. They can't figure out my personality so it's hard for them to get close to me. I am too shy, and they can't decide if I am a fun person or worth it to invite to gatherings outside of work. My co-worker who told me all this was telling me because he says he defended me, telling them that I just need to come out of my shell. He says I remind him of his son. He's quiet and shy until you get to know him... then his real personality comes out, and he's really fun to be around.
He's completely and utterly right, but it still hurt. In a way, I'm glad that he defended me, because I obviously wasn't there myself to do it. And it's true, when I first started I was extremely shy. I kept to myself, I interacted only with the people who started interacting with me first... but to tell you the truth, it's been almost 1 1/2 years since I started working there, and I was under the impression that I had come out of my shell at least 9 months ago. I don't think that I'm all that shy anymore.. I just try to be polite. Is that possibly construed as shy..? I feel like I worked really hard to try to let go and stop worrying about what they think of me. But maybe without even knowing it I am still the shy person that I was 1.5 years ago. Maybe this is why I'm so unapproachable?
How do I stop this? :\
In other news: Gong Yoo Gong Yoo Gong Yoo :)
Apparently, this is what I was told, a lot of them can't quite wrap their head around me. They can't figure out my personality so it's hard for them to get close to me. I am too shy, and they can't decide if I am a fun person or worth it to invite to gatherings outside of work. My co-worker who told me all this was telling me because he says he defended me, telling them that I just need to come out of my shell. He says I remind him of his son. He's quiet and shy until you get to know him... then his real personality comes out, and he's really fun to be around.
He's completely and utterly right, but it still hurt. In a way, I'm glad that he defended me, because I obviously wasn't there myself to do it. And it's true, when I first started I was extremely shy. I kept to myself, I interacted only with the people who started interacting with me first... but to tell you the truth, it's been almost 1 1/2 years since I started working there, and I was under the impression that I had come out of my shell at least 9 months ago. I don't think that I'm all that shy anymore.. I just try to be polite. Is that possibly construed as shy..? I feel like I worked really hard to try to let go and stop worrying about what they think of me. But maybe without even knowing it I am still the shy person that I was 1.5 years ago. Maybe this is why I'm so unapproachable?
How do I stop this? :\
In other news: Gong Yoo Gong Yoo Gong Yoo :)