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Tuesday - my usual day off but Jill can't come so I'm here with mom all day - no art group. I did some work on getting rid of the self-pity this morning so I'm ok now. Dave and Johnny are gone all week. I just feel a little isolated - which I hear is the usual plight of the full time caregiver. I can't even make a connection with mom today - she doesn't know me and is very wary of me and suspicious of me. Though I did have a very sweet dream last night where she kissed me and knew me like the old days - I can think of that dream today. I am so emotionally dependent on the mail and ordering amazon stuff. I say it's an addiction - maybe it is, but it seems like a connection to the outside - things coming to me when I can't get out. And the internet and researching things is another connection to things I can reach - thank god for that too. It would be so wonderful if the iTouch could come today but I know it won't. It will get here on Thursday. I wish I could play with that. But - I still have the etsy rings to finish and the rest of North by Northwest to watch - once I start I'll get lost in that - so good...