the nature of winter depression
I don't know if it really qualifies as "depression" though it does feel depressing - the desire to sleep all the time, lack of creative ideas, general lethargy. Some people say they are hibernating. I think it is probably better to just say that and go with that definition. Give up having expectations of getting more done. Then it doesn't seem so "depressing". Winter depression will pass, and it will pass when it is ready to - there is no beating up and whipping of self that will make it pass faster. I get into trouble when I start to fear it won't pass - that this is the "real me" and that there is something wrong with me now (dementia is starting, my heart is bad, I'm sick).
So what did I get done today? Went to my meeting this morning, lunch with friends, came home and napped for 1/2 hour, got up to take care of mom, watched the last netflix of The Kingdom that I had on hand here (still have one more left to go in the series), put mom to bed and napped again for 2 hours, got mom up, folded clothes and here I am writing about how I have no energy to get anything more done. Will be soon going to the kitchen table with mom, hopefully do a page in my AYOA and I think that will be it for today. When I write it out it looks like I got some stuff done but actually most of what I got done was a lot of napping. Oh well, I need to keep telling myself to have faith that this too will pass... or else I really might end up getting depressed by it!
So what did I get done today? Went to my meeting this morning, lunch with friends, came home and napped for 1/2 hour, got up to take care of mom, watched the last netflix of The Kingdom that I had on hand here (still have one more left to go in the series), put mom to bed and napped again for 2 hours, got mom up, folded clothes and here I am writing about how I have no energy to get anything more done. Will be soon going to the kitchen table with mom, hopefully do a page in my AYOA and I think that will be it for today. When I write it out it looks like I got some stuff done but actually most of what I got done was a lot of napping. Oh well, I need to keep telling myself to have faith that this too will pass... or else I really might end up getting depressed by it!