saturday
Solstice Face. I had originally planned something more colorful but as usual Simple took over. I just don't have that much gumption anymore to tackle long or big pieces of art. I'm getting old, or I'm changing somehow to be lazier and more satisfied with just simple things. Spending a whole day on something is too much. Ideally I want to spend an hour or less. But then I want it DONE. I can't envision myself doing anything big that would take days and days, or weeks. Right now anyway. SOMEday I can see myself doing something big. But I just don't know what that would be. My big project right now is these art-a-day books. If you put the 3 books together then that would be something big. I have 51 more days to go and it'll be a year. My question is, would I want to continue past a year, or take a break and do nothing, or start something different? That's the kind of thing that occupies my mind.
It's better than thinking about politics and how stupid and awful things are. I want to see that stuff as a tragicomedy. Like it's a play going on "out there". But then I start thinking that, yes, it will affect me and the ones I love, and the whole earth. Doom. What to do? I can only think about how disgusted it makes me for so long, (and I already think about it too much) then I want to do something else with my mind...
Something pleasant like watch the birds.
Which reminds me - soon I'll have the new binoculars and watching these goldfinches is going to be so neat. They are constantly having interactions with each other. Chasing others away, feeding others (mates I'm guessing). Pecking order galore. How can they even tell each other apart? I wish I could tell them apart. I can see that the ones with the brightest yellow are the ones who are the most aggressive/dominant. They'll chase any new arrivals away, but then all of a sudden they'll settle down and let certain birds in and then everything will be calm eating for a while with maybe 8 birds lined up evenly all around. Is he the head of that group and he's chasing away a different clan so his clan can come in and feed? Or does he just get tired of fighting and want to spend his time eating too, instead of constantly having to fight and chase away? A puzzle.