monday
Awake in the night last night contemplating "The Doom". Something about going away sets that up for me. Maybe if I wasn't leaving behind animals who usually depend on me... Thinking about all the things that could go wrong. Though I should be comforted by the fact that 2 weeks can go by very quickly. Just ask my pill boxes that I set up every 2 weeks. Two weeks can be like 2 days in some cases. Hopefully it'll be like that for the dogs, cat and chickens. Sebastian is a good and kind person. Responsible too. With Jules as his backup it should be fine. I think I have a bit of control freak in me. I think I know the best way to do everything. My way is the best way. Though I can suddenly change the way I do something and then the old way (the way I believed was so perfect for so long) becomes dumb and totally wrong. That ought to tell me something.
Rainy goes for her haircut later today. Here's a picture of her at her frowsy-est. I woke her up and she's wondering why I'm looking at her with a contraption in front of my face. Maybe there'll be another picture later.
I suppose this is totally uninteresting to other people but I've decided to try and grow my bangs out. I figure it'll be 6 months before they can be tucked behind my ears. If I can just hold out till September I should be okay. I have a long term goal in life now.
One of Dave's friends was involved in a freak accident. The man golfs with his friends. They all ride in a cart but he likes to walk the course so he hits his ball first and then walks to the side to the next hole while they are still shooting (do they call it shooting in golf?). One of his friends sliced the ball and it flew over and hit him behind the ear. He was in a comma for a few days. He's awake now and can talk a little but it will be a long recovery. Was it his own fault because everyone told him he shouldn't do it (walk on the side like that)? Too dangerous. Should they have refused to golf with him? Got me thinking about accidents and fate and danger and trying to protect oneself from danger. Does intuition work? Can you feel perfectly good about something and be going along and suddenly get killed or seriously injured? Thinking about TIME. How does time work? Always going forward, forward. There is no thread reaching back to us in the present to tell us what's going to happen. We can't predict ANYthing. We can only make our best plans but then it's.......
Rainy goes for her haircut later today. Here's a picture of her at her frowsy-est. I woke her up and she's wondering why I'm looking at her with a contraption in front of my face. Maybe there'll be another picture later.
I suppose this is totally uninteresting to other people but I've decided to try and grow my bangs out. I figure it'll be 6 months before they can be tucked behind my ears. If I can just hold out till September I should be okay. I have a long term goal in life now.
One of Dave's friends was involved in a freak accident. The man golfs with his friends. They all ride in a cart but he likes to walk the course so he hits his ball first and then walks to the side to the next hole while they are still shooting (do they call it shooting in golf?). One of his friends sliced the ball and it flew over and hit him behind the ear. He was in a comma for a few days. He's awake now and can talk a little but it will be a long recovery. Was it his own fault because everyone told him he shouldn't do it (walk on the side like that)? Too dangerous. Should they have refused to golf with him? Got me thinking about accidents and fate and danger and trying to protect oneself from danger. Does intuition work? Can you feel perfectly good about something and be going along and suddenly get killed or seriously injured? Thinking about TIME. How does time work? Always going forward, forward. There is no thread reaching back to us in the present to tell us what's going to happen. We can't predict ANYthing. We can only make our best plans but then it's.......