monday
Oh dear. Not feeling that well. I don't think I am an actual hypochondriac but I am capable when I'm under stress of getting symptoms so I just can't trust myself to know what is really going on. Last night my left arm ached - not terribly but a little. My right arm aches all the time and I don't worry about that so I just thought - oh, now the left will be joining in. But an aching left arm can also be a sign of a heart attack. Also twice now in the last couple days I've felt shaky and weak. But I used to feel shaky and weak all the time when I was watching what I ate and not eating so much. My blood sugar would be low and that's how I felt - shaky. In the last two days I have been watching what I eat and not eating so much so maybe it's just low blood sugar again. My chest has felt "tight" now and then for the last few days. That could just be me producing a symptom because I'm worried and stressed. So I don't know what to do. Don't want to go to the emergency room that's for sure. I hear it is very overcrowded right now and the wait is horrendous. My B/P is normal. I could call my doctor and hope that they could get me in - just do a little check up with a PA to reassure me. Maybe that's all I need and these symptoms will go away. Right now as I sit here writing this I don't feel too bad. Pretty much normal. Though my right arm is aching a bit. I don't want advice so I will be blocking comments. I just want a place to think out loud about it.
In the meantime here's one of the writing prompts to take my mind off things: What's the longest amount of time you've ever worked at a job? I worked at Polk Center for a total of 11+ years. I worked those 11 years in 4 different places at four different times. I worked a couple years in Meadowside right when I got out of high school and then quit to go to college for a year. Then I worked at Lakeside until I quit to leave my first husband and run away to Florida. (We did eventually get back together.) Worked at Terrace till I quit again so we could go to Arizona for his health. That didn't work out, we were in a car wreck and we returned home. Then I worked at Walker Hall till I quit in 1987 to have Chloe. Most all those years I worked as a nightwatch and I really liked it. I liked being the ruler of my own little clean, quiet kingdom. After quitting I always got my job back very quickly because I was a good worker.
January 3rd is fruitcake toss day. Do you like fruitcake? Why does it get such a bad rap? I like fruit cake. Of course - it's sweet. I like the candied fruits in it. It is pretty heavy and I can't eat that much so it's one of those things that I like to go back to over and over again to get a little bite. Thank goodness we don't have one or I would be nibbling on it till it was gone. I don't need all those calories. I don't know why it has a bad rap. It's delicious.
In the meantime here's one of the writing prompts to take my mind off things: What's the longest amount of time you've ever worked at a job? I worked at Polk Center for a total of 11+ years. I worked those 11 years in 4 different places at four different times. I worked a couple years in Meadowside right when I got out of high school and then quit to go to college for a year. Then I worked at Lakeside until I quit to leave my first husband and run away to Florida. (We did eventually get back together.) Worked at Terrace till I quit again so we could go to Arizona for his health. That didn't work out, we were in a car wreck and we returned home. Then I worked at Walker Hall till I quit in 1987 to have Chloe. Most all those years I worked as a nightwatch and I really liked it. I liked being the ruler of my own little clean, quiet kingdom. After quitting I always got my job back very quickly because I was a good worker.
January 3rd is fruitcake toss day. Do you like fruitcake? Why does it get such a bad rap? I like fruit cake. Of course - it's sweet. I like the candied fruits in it. It is pretty heavy and I can't eat that much so it's one of those things that I like to go back to over and over again to get a little bite. Thank goodness we don't have one or I would be nibbling on it till it was gone. I don't need all those calories. I don't know why it has a bad rap. It's delicious.