good morning friday
I went to bed really early last night - 8:30. And got up this morning at 4:30. That seems right and proper.
Backyard dog fence.
This not eating everything I WANT to eat is hard. I have to keep giving myself pep talks all day. Hopefully it will get easier. I have reveled in nondiscipline and freedom for too long. One of the pep talks I give myself is that it will be so great to be l-i-g-h-t-e-r, more buoyant. The weight I am right now is the weight I was when I joined OA 27 years ago. I didn’t like being that weight then and I don’t like being that weight now. But now I am 27 years older and it is even harder carrying the weight at this age. 27 years ago I was 38, had just had Johnny and was still nursing him. It was easy to lose the weight. Being 65 it is not easy to lose weight. I am finding it hard to be alone and get through the long day without food as my buddy. I want some kind of stimualation. I’m not so much a big binger of food but a browser of food and like to take little bites all day. For me a perfect world would be no kitchen in the house and someone would bring me my food (balanced meals) 3 times a day. I can understand how some people get that food service where they buy all their food in packaged amounts, it is all laid out for them, they just have to open the packages at the right times. I guess I just have to do that for myself now. Plan the meals and get them ready in a balanced way.
Backyard dog fence.
This not eating everything I WANT to eat is hard. I have to keep giving myself pep talks all day. Hopefully it will get easier. I have reveled in nondiscipline and freedom for too long. One of the pep talks I give myself is that it will be so great to be l-i-g-h-t-e-r, more buoyant. The weight I am right now is the weight I was when I joined OA 27 years ago. I didn’t like being that weight then and I don’t like being that weight now. But now I am 27 years older and it is even harder carrying the weight at this age. 27 years ago I was 38, had just had Johnny and was still nursing him. It was easy to lose the weight. Being 65 it is not easy to lose weight. I am finding it hard to be alone and get through the long day without food as my buddy. I want some kind of stimualation. I’m not so much a big binger of food but a browser of food and like to take little bites all day. For me a perfect world would be no kitchen in the house and someone would bring me my food (balanced meals) 3 times a day. I can understand how some people get that food service where they buy all their food in packaged amounts, it is all laid out for them, they just have to open the packages at the right times. I guess I just have to do that for myself now. Plan the meals and get them ready in a balanced way.