thoughts and worries...
gracegiver asked for a chick pic so here is one I took yesterday:
Wings is walking along the edge of the top of the box and looking down at her friends. She is the only one brave enough or strong enough to fly out of the box so far. She gets herself up to the top edge and then balance beam walks along it for a while, then flies across to the sink and then back again. Back and forth. She finally settles on a corner edge of the box and roosts there till I put her back and cover the box with the screen again.
Worries... I had put the radiation therapy out of my mind (as a concern) with all the other stuff to think about - the surgery and heart monitor, but now that it is getting closer I'm getting concerned with how well I will handle it. Severe fatigue is supposed to be a big side effect in 80% of women, during the time of treatment and up to a year afterwards. I'm not the most energetic person at the best of times. I already take a nap most everyday. I can't seem to get motivated to even clean my house regularly as it is. The basement is always waiting and never getting worked on. My jewelry work is very slow - maybe that will come to a stop totally? I love my hikes and biking with friends (it is my favorite thing in life!) - will I even be able to do that? I am still planning on little walks - not the 4 mile hikes I am doing now - but surely I will be able take small walks of one mile. They say exercise will actually give a person more energy so I will make myself get out and do some walking for sure. I don't even know if I will be in the 80% that feel this great fatigue - maybe I will be in the lucky 20% who aren't much affected? I hope so.
Today I will go and get the CT scan that will map my body for delivering the radiation exactly where it is supposed to go. It will take a while to do that - a couple hours? But the actual radiation treatments later will be much shorter.
Wings is walking along the edge of the top of the box and looking down at her friends. She is the only one brave enough or strong enough to fly out of the box so far. She gets herself up to the top edge and then balance beam walks along it for a while, then flies across to the sink and then back again. Back and forth. She finally settles on a corner edge of the box and roosts there till I put her back and cover the box with the screen again.
Worries... I had put the radiation therapy out of my mind (as a concern) with all the other stuff to think about - the surgery and heart monitor, but now that it is getting closer I'm getting concerned with how well I will handle it. Severe fatigue is supposed to be a big side effect in 80% of women, during the time of treatment and up to a year afterwards. I'm not the most energetic person at the best of times. I already take a nap most everyday. I can't seem to get motivated to even clean my house regularly as it is. The basement is always waiting and never getting worked on. My jewelry work is very slow - maybe that will come to a stop totally? I love my hikes and biking with friends (it is my favorite thing in life!) - will I even be able to do that? I am still planning on little walks - not the 4 mile hikes I am doing now - but surely I will be able take small walks of one mile. They say exercise will actually give a person more energy so I will make myself get out and do some walking for sure. I don't even know if I will be in the 80% that feel this great fatigue - maybe I will be in the lucky 20% who aren't much affected? I hope so.
Today I will go and get the CT scan that will map my body for delivering the radiation exactly where it is supposed to go. It will take a while to do that - a couple hours? But the actual radiation treatments later will be much shorter.