wednesday morning
Coming to my basement studio first thing this morning. Strange lighting effects coming through the garage door windows. The upper part of the room has a yellow/green hue to it and the floor is normal. I think it is because the green lighting is coming from sun reflected off green trees outside the window and only hitting the top part of the room and the light on the floor comes down directly out of the sky.
I've been keeping busy with glazing parts for the mosaic and planning how things will look. The basement is a good place to be on hot day. Enjoying it a lot - listening to music shuffled on the ipad. Now I'm thinking of other ceramic mosaic projects I might like to do. My creativity seems to be waking up. My current recreation is creation - a state of mind I haven't related to for a while - I was wondering if something was wrong with me because my constant thinking about art used to be such a big part of my life.
Some ceramic elements didn't turn out up to par and I will have to redo them. The rocks I made are really beautiful but they don't look like "rocks" - so I need to make more in just a dull matte tan color. And the flowers didn't turn out well - the glaze was too thick and lost the details so I need to remake them too. But I'm thinking the rocks I made will look great somewhere else - in a new mosaic.
I have been watching a lot less TV - happy about that. Though last night Dave and I did watch a movie - "Hello, my Name is Delores". I related so much to her. The caregiving, the hoarding and attachment to memories in the form of things, the shyness. When mom had her stroke (a month before the wedding) I was considering calling it off with Dave so I could take care of mom and John - not saddle Dave with it all too. But his friends convinced him he shouldn't let me do that. The best thing that could have ever happened to me. A burden shared is so much lighter.
Today is Hazel's 18th birthday - starting a new life as an adult. We won't have an official party today but we plan to do things she likes like swim in the creek and have a fire down there. I'm going to make her a set of bangle bracelets - need to get busy with that...