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"I never believed that there was a rainbow
With a pot of gold at the end
I'm much too smart for fairy tales like that
Yet here I am again
I thought this time, this time we're gonna make it
Why I thought so I really don't know
Maybe something in his eyes just told me so
Something in his eyes...
Tell me lies
And I'll come runnin'
I must have lost my mind!
I could close me eyes
And tell you just exactly what's comin'
Life's gonna turn just a little unkind
Seems like everyone's sailin'
Way out on the sea
And I'm stuck here on the shore
Sun's always shinin'
But it's never on me
Why should I try anymore?
Tell me lies
Tell me lies
And I'll just keep right on comin'
This time I've got to believe in the dream
This time I've got to believe in his dream ... "
Jessica broke up with me on wendesday... we had gone out to ibar tuesday night and as usual she got drunk. She went through my text messages and found some that she considered evidence that I was cheating. Her excuse? I had been acting different so she wanted proof that something was up. I was furious, and we fought. On my way home she called me and told me that things were over. Still mad and hurt, I told her fine.
I haven't cried until today.
I went to the Castle with Kyou last night, and it was amazing. We danced, we made fun of the protesters proclaiming that we were all going to hell. She was drunk after just one drink. It was a blast.
And then Jessie calls me. It had been three days since we'd broken up, you know? She calls me and she wants to fix things. She told me she was just mad and hurt and shocked that I could do such a thing. In the background I can hear her sister in law talking shit about me. Telling her to just hang up, why did she call, the usual bullshit. I told her that I didn't know, because I was hurt and she doesn't trust me. She came to visit me, and I had to break up with her again in person.
It hurt so bad. I do love her, and I just want her to be happy. Seeing her hurt like that, I don't know. It messed me up. She hugged me and wished me the best of luck. I know that she loves me, or rather loved me. I just want her to be happy. Thats all I ever want for everyone.
And now Michelle is running off to New York.
Its always the same.
I want to be happy again.
With a pot of gold at the end
I'm much too smart for fairy tales like that
Yet here I am again
I thought this time, this time we're gonna make it
Why I thought so I really don't know
Maybe something in his eyes just told me so
Something in his eyes...
Tell me lies
And I'll come runnin'
I must have lost my mind!
I could close me eyes
And tell you just exactly what's comin'
Life's gonna turn just a little unkind
Seems like everyone's sailin'
Way out on the sea
And I'm stuck here on the shore
Sun's always shinin'
But it's never on me
Why should I try anymore?
Tell me lies
Tell me lies
And I'll just keep right on comin'
This time I've got to believe in the dream
This time I've got to believe in his dream ... "
Jessica broke up with me on wendesday... we had gone out to ibar tuesday night and as usual she got drunk. She went through my text messages and found some that she considered evidence that I was cheating. Her excuse? I had been acting different so she wanted proof that something was up. I was furious, and we fought. On my way home she called me and told me that things were over. Still mad and hurt, I told her fine.
I haven't cried until today.
I went to the Castle with Kyou last night, and it was amazing. We danced, we made fun of the protesters proclaiming that we were all going to hell. She was drunk after just one drink. It was a blast.
And then Jessie calls me. It had been three days since we'd broken up, you know? She calls me and she wants to fix things. She told me she was just mad and hurt and shocked that I could do such a thing. In the background I can hear her sister in law talking shit about me. Telling her to just hang up, why did she call, the usual bullshit. I told her that I didn't know, because I was hurt and she doesn't trust me. She came to visit me, and I had to break up with her again in person.
It hurt so bad. I do love her, and I just want her to be happy. Seeing her hurt like that, I don't know. It messed me up. She hugged me and wished me the best of luck. I know that she loves me, or rather loved me. I just want her to be happy. Thats all I ever want for everyone.
And now Michelle is running off to New York.
Its always the same.
I want to be happy again.