I am disappearing
So I just my internet back today. THANK GOD. I had made an arrangement to hopefully catch Allyn on-line so we could have a more personalized chat. I could have slept in until god knows when and he had still not shown up at 2pm and I had said about 9am and I got up at 8am to meet the cable guy. Sniff. I am working a hell of alot and my mind gets goofy by the second. I think I am going to have to go and buy some of that green concealer stuff, but I do not know how to use it. DEB IF YOU are reading this RESPOND!!! WAVES at Deb. I just finished a can of Lays stax chips. I think they need to put some kind of label on those things WARNING ADDICTIVE LIKE CRACK AND WILL ENHANCE YOUR ASS SIZE. Oh well. Sorry this is so random.
So, while I was waiting for my dear boy to come on-line I ran into old friend from the net and real friends on-line. Jackie seems to be okay she is living in the basement. She misses everyone and hates work. Deb got an interview where I think she may have killed off the other applicators(do not quite know the correct word, TIm please correct.) I am just kidding Deb. Sam was talking but Tim kept distracting him so I gave up, and if I was bummed out about not getting to talk to Allyn some nasty mean tricker upstairs decided to enhance my sadness or pitifullness by returning to my life a giant asshole.
Now, this is the net and the wonderful thing about that is if someone pisses you off you can block them or just pretend you are AFK. YEt, I have a guilty conscience and have a nagging little person in my ear that says that is not nice. HE is someone I was friends with and we had a one night fling. The fling was really not good and then he just got super wierd after that. He called one day to break up with me and mistook my laughter for crying. I had not been aware we were dating, but hey sometimes I miss things and maybe I said sure I will date you because I do talk in my sleep. Well then he continued to call me everyday forever. Even after ALlyn moved in with me he called me everyday. Allyn asked me who he was I told him. Allyn told me to just be mean. One day I did tell him exactly how i felt about him and he got upset and did not call me for a WHOLE TWO DAYS. THen he called to tell he had been thinking it over and had decided that he was to rash to break up with me and was ready to give it another go. I told him I am glad that he had decided to give me another chance, but I was not interested and what did he think that I had been sitting waiting for the last few months in the hopes that he would realize I WAS THE ONE because I had never even wanted to be the one. This upset him too so he did not call me for a whole week. I am such a dork rather then be relieved I felt a little bad for hurting his feeeling I mean we had been friend until he got wierd. Well I told Allyn all about this and he told me he would fix this. He told me I was not a bad person I was just being honest and outright honest because he seemed to not understand anything else. Aaron called again and Allyn picked up he said "Look, Heather is not interested in dating you and she gets upset when you call. WHy do you bother I think you should stop" POOF no more callls. YAY. THen I ran into him on here. He asked me about Allyn I told him he was out of the country for who knew how long. He asked if he could come up this weekend to see me. I told him it would be cool to go see a movie tonight, but I had plans for tomorrow. HEY SAM. He asked where he would stay. I told him at his house after he went home after the movie. He asked what i wanted from him I told him friendship. He said anything more I said nope and before you ask I do not think anything more either. He said that it would not be worth coming up here to just go see a movie. THen told me how I am not much of a friend if I think it is easy for him to see me and not want more then a friendship. THat I must not care at all. THat he is have a lot of emotional and mental distress over me. I care but at the same time I think he is trying to guilt me into a relationship and I am not going to lie to him to make him feel better, because then I am really not a good friend. So I came to the conclusion He is not just a cock but a pussy cock.
This is why it really sucked not getting to talk to Allyn. I need to do something fun today, but I do not know what. I want to go dancing LOL.-Egao
So, while I was waiting for my dear boy to come on-line I ran into old friend from the net and real friends on-line. Jackie seems to be okay she is living in the basement. She misses everyone and hates work. Deb got an interview where I think she may have killed off the other applicators(do not quite know the correct word, TIm please correct.) I am just kidding Deb. Sam was talking but Tim kept distracting him so I gave up, and if I was bummed out about not getting to talk to Allyn some nasty mean tricker upstairs decided to enhance my sadness or pitifullness by returning to my life a giant asshole.
Now, this is the net and the wonderful thing about that is if someone pisses you off you can block them or just pretend you are AFK. YEt, I have a guilty conscience and have a nagging little person in my ear that says that is not nice. HE is someone I was friends with and we had a one night fling. The fling was really not good and then he just got super wierd after that. He called one day to break up with me and mistook my laughter for crying. I had not been aware we were dating, but hey sometimes I miss things and maybe I said sure I will date you because I do talk in my sleep. Well then he continued to call me everyday forever. Even after ALlyn moved in with me he called me everyday. Allyn asked me who he was I told him. Allyn told me to just be mean. One day I did tell him exactly how i felt about him and he got upset and did not call me for a WHOLE TWO DAYS. THen he called to tell he had been thinking it over and had decided that he was to rash to break up with me and was ready to give it another go. I told him I am glad that he had decided to give me another chance, but I was not interested and what did he think that I had been sitting waiting for the last few months in the hopes that he would realize I WAS THE ONE because I had never even wanted to be the one. This upset him too so he did not call me for a whole week. I am such a dork rather then be relieved I felt a little bad for hurting his feeeling I mean we had been friend until he got wierd. Well I told Allyn all about this and he told me he would fix this. He told me I was not a bad person I was just being honest and outright honest because he seemed to not understand anything else. Aaron called again and Allyn picked up he said "Look, Heather is not interested in dating you and she gets upset when you call. WHy do you bother I think you should stop" POOF no more callls. YAY. THen I ran into him on here. He asked me about Allyn I told him he was out of the country for who knew how long. He asked if he could come up this weekend to see me. I told him it would be cool to go see a movie tonight, but I had plans for tomorrow. HEY SAM. He asked where he would stay. I told him at his house after he went home after the movie. He asked what i wanted from him I told him friendship. He said anything more I said nope and before you ask I do not think anything more either. He said that it would not be worth coming up here to just go see a movie. THen told me how I am not much of a friend if I think it is easy for him to see me and not want more then a friendship. THat I must not care at all. THat he is have a lot of emotional and mental distress over me. I care but at the same time I think he is trying to guilt me into a relationship and I am not going to lie to him to make him feel better, because then I am really not a good friend. So I came to the conclusion He is not just a cock but a pussy cock.
This is why it really sucked not getting to talk to Allyn. I need to do something fun today, but I do not know what. I want to go dancing LOL.-Egao