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i think i may have found a viable way out of here. thank goddd. dad told me earlier he found out that Chesterfield (school he used to be principal of) is looking for a special ed aid - hours = 9-3, benefits, same days off that students get... etc. only downside is that its a bit of a drive but if i stay at Cory's that would chop about a half hour or so off. i hope it works out. and tomorrow i'm registering to take a class at Rowan. here's hoping things work out better and i can get my semi-depressed self out of this place.
i feel a bit better since yesterday - thanks to those who left nice comments. it was a pretty rough day. wasn't just one thing... just a lot of little things/current situational uncertainties... plus the weather was more awful than i can remember in months and plus a certain other someone very important to me was in a funk to begin with due to job-related issues, which i guess just kind of set me off. ughh. i never really took note of how tired crying makes you til yesterday. funny.
but after the day was over, we vegged for a bit.. um, engaged in some spirit-raising activies.. got a hot shower with the window open (love doing that when its chilly out... the whole simultaneous hot/cold experience just gives me shivers).. made a yummy dinner.. and went to see The Bourne Ultimatum which was quite enjoyable. lots of action the whole way through. i still have never seen the first of the trilogy... but i knew enough to understand what was going on. i kept thinking to myself how funny it is how Matt Damon started out as the stubborn genius living in a ghetto in his debut (Good Will Hunting) back in the mid 90s when no one knew who he was.. and now he's playing this criminal guy. /random
also watched The Last Kiss over the weekend w/my mom & sister on OnDemand. i'd had a vague idea of what it was about beforehand. i knew Z.B. wrote it and picked the soundtrack which gets points in my book given how Garden State turned out in said regards. anyway despite the themes of infidelity which result in different consequences, the movie really had an effect on me and i was definitely crying at the end. i think it wouldnt have had such an effect were i not in the relationship i'm in. if i watched it maybe a year ago, i'd say i'd have been either indifferent, or kind of rolled my eyes at the whole thing (probably not). but with the way things are now, it just made me think of how much i really treasure our relationship and how i hope things never change cause i'd never want to have to go through the situations that some of the couples went through. sigh. /sappy yet true OH, and the most brilliant use of Imogen Heap's "Hide and Seek". it totally gave me chills. he really has a way of getting at the heart of what a song's about and knowing right where to put it to maximize the impact.
anyway.... back to work i suppose. here's hoping my plan to get out of this place works out.
i feel a bit better since yesterday - thanks to those who left nice comments. it was a pretty rough day. wasn't just one thing... just a lot of little things/current situational uncertainties... plus the weather was more awful than i can remember in months and plus a certain other someone very important to me was in a funk to begin with due to job-related issues, which i guess just kind of set me off. ughh. i never really took note of how tired crying makes you til yesterday. funny.
but after the day was over, we vegged for a bit.. um, engaged in some spirit-raising activies.. got a hot shower with the window open (love doing that when its chilly out... the whole simultaneous hot/cold experience just gives me shivers).. made a yummy dinner.. and went to see The Bourne Ultimatum which was quite enjoyable. lots of action the whole way through. i still have never seen the first of the trilogy... but i knew enough to understand what was going on. i kept thinking to myself how funny it is how Matt Damon started out as the stubborn genius living in a ghetto in his debut (Good Will Hunting) back in the mid 90s when no one knew who he was.. and now he's playing this criminal guy. /random
also watched The Last Kiss over the weekend w/my mom & sister on OnDemand. i'd had a vague idea of what it was about beforehand. i knew Z.B. wrote it and picked the soundtrack which gets points in my book given how Garden State turned out in said regards. anyway despite the themes of infidelity which result in different consequences, the movie really had an effect on me and i was definitely crying at the end. i think it wouldnt have had such an effect were i not in the relationship i'm in. if i watched it maybe a year ago, i'd say i'd have been either indifferent, or kind of rolled my eyes at the whole thing (probably not). but with the way things are now, it just made me think of how much i really treasure our relationship and how i hope things never change cause i'd never want to have to go through the situations that some of the couples went through. sigh. /sappy yet true OH, and the most brilliant use of Imogen Heap's "Hide and Seek". it totally gave me chills. he really has a way of getting at the heart of what a song's about and knowing right where to put it to maximize the impact.
anyway.... back to work i suppose. here's hoping my plan to get out of this place works out.