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well, here we are once again.... Sunday night and Erica hasnt written anything yet for her comp. independent study, for which i have to meet with Dr. Eggert at 10:30 tomorrow. aghhhh. i think i might just sleep for like 2 hrs and then get up and work on it then. i hate doing this. i cant wait til school is over. i think i'm ready for it to be over. like for high school, i was all 'i cant wait to be out of here.. i wont cry at graduation, etc' and then of course i ended up bawling like a baby at the end. but i've gone though 16 years of formal education - thats a lot - i think i'm ready for no more classes and homework. its weird... i go through this cycle... when i'm at school i'm always thinking that i cant wait for summer so i can relax and do whatever... and then as soon as summer starts, i revel in the freedom for about the first week, and then quickly get bored and wish i was back at school with things to do. this ALWAYS happens. but i'm just so tired of doing work for classes i dont care about, not having time to do things that i both do and dont want to do, and just the whole thing in general. its not good for my mental health. most of the times i'm not really happy. i need the summer to get back on track and get in shape and just become a happier person. hopefully i'll look back and read this during the summer when i wish things were different and realize that i'm lucky to have things be the way they are, then. blahhhh
ok so yeah this weekend passed and i essentially wasted the time away working on some project that i dont really have to do.. i just started it and got really into it. i do this occasionally - start working on something and then it practically consumes my life for a bit... though i think its a subconscious ploy to just avoid my work. anyways its a long story but i randomly decided i was going to do a cover of this song, using all MIDI and then guitar and vocals.. haha. i practically recreated the whole thing and it sounds just like the original. and i added some cool ambient stuff to the beginning and end to enhance the mood... ocean waves, distant chimes, etc. i'm almost finished it. blahhh.
i'm definitely gonna have a case of the Mondays tomorrow. i feel like watching Office Space, dammit. anyways there are a whole bunch of little things i need to get done before the end of the semester and i just keep putting them out of my mind and i cant bring myself to start anything. i hate this. this is why i need to be finished with school. ok enough. time to sleep for a few hours and then get to work on this junk. asldjflajsdlf;jasdf
oh yeah.. and i was thinking earlier.. its funny how you can really think you have a certain person/situation/etc figured out, and then you realize you were completely wrong. for instance, i was almost positive that 2 people who i know were going out, just by watching the way they interracted from across the room and random encounters of the like. and then as i'm walking to class, i see the girl holding hands with another guy. hmmm. granted that was one example but nonetheless... still pertinent in other situations as well.
*random*
ok so yeah this weekend passed and i essentially wasted the time away working on some project that i dont really have to do.. i just started it and got really into it. i do this occasionally - start working on something and then it practically consumes my life for a bit... though i think its a subconscious ploy to just avoid my work. anyways its a long story but i randomly decided i was going to do a cover of this song, using all MIDI and then guitar and vocals.. haha. i practically recreated the whole thing and it sounds just like the original. and i added some cool ambient stuff to the beginning and end to enhance the mood... ocean waves, distant chimes, etc. i'm almost finished it. blahhh.
i'm definitely gonna have a case of the Mondays tomorrow. i feel like watching Office Space, dammit. anyways there are a whole bunch of little things i need to get done before the end of the semester and i just keep putting them out of my mind and i cant bring myself to start anything. i hate this. this is why i need to be finished with school. ok enough. time to sleep for a few hours and then get to work on this junk. asldjflajsdlf;jasdf
oh yeah.. and i was thinking earlier.. its funny how you can really think you have a certain person/situation/etc figured out, and then you realize you were completely wrong. for instance, i was almost positive that 2 people who i know were going out, just by watching the way they interracted from across the room and random encounters of the like. and then as i'm walking to class, i see the girl holding hands with another guy. hmmm. granted that was one example but nonetheless... still pertinent in other situations as well.
*random*