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i hate it really. i think im just gunna give up on everything right now.
i can never have anyone as long as i live. once i THINK i find something worth having it gets fucked up yet again. i always get left. ha. good ol katlynn. what a piece of shit apparently. hope everyone elses lives are fine and dandy. they cant suck as much as mine. i cant even see the keyboard. too many tears inmy eyes. its all blury. nothing is good. nothing. i hate this. i hate myself. i hate everyone right now. i want to die more than ever. i miss reese and it kills me to know that im nothing to anyone and hes sooo close to me right now and i dont even have the fucking nerve to call him and say hi? we cant even be friends. fucking oh my god. why is life so horrible all the fucking time? really. fuck fuck ufck ufck fuck. well the best thing to do is to just stop talking to lawrence too i guess. i cant even breath right now. i liked him omuch. sooo fucking much. more than anyone else ever. honestly. but its gone. maybe its for the best. this is me. lynn. a drunken trashy makeout whore lush. i stopped it all for this. but i guess thats the real me... spending my life making out with anyone messing around with anyone just to feel wanted for at least an hour.... i dont know im so fucking confused may as well go cut my wrists.
i hate it
i can never have anyone as long as i live. once i THINK i find something worth having it gets fucked up yet again. i always get left. ha. good ol katlynn. what a piece of shit apparently. hope everyone elses lives are fine and dandy. they cant suck as much as mine. i cant even see the keyboard. too many tears inmy eyes. its all blury. nothing is good. nothing. i hate this. i hate myself. i hate everyone right now. i want to die more than ever. i miss reese and it kills me to know that im nothing to anyone and hes sooo close to me right now and i dont even have the fucking nerve to call him and say hi? we cant even be friends. fucking oh my god. why is life so horrible all the fucking time? really. fuck fuck ufck ufck fuck. well the best thing to do is to just stop talking to lawrence too i guess. i cant even breath right now. i liked him omuch. sooo fucking much. more than anyone else ever. honestly. but its gone. maybe its for the best. this is me. lynn. a drunken trashy makeout whore lush. i stopped it all for this. but i guess thats the real me... spending my life making out with anyone messing around with anyone just to feel wanted for at least an hour.... i dont know im so fucking confused may as well go cut my wrists.
i hate it