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I dont know anything anymore. what to think. what to do. fuck it. blah. i stopped drinking and smoking for good this time. im not even craving it. its rad. im gettins my first tatoo in 3 weeks when i turn eighteen i cant wait. i kind of want my snakebites back but i dont know if i want to pay to get them done again. I have no one anymore. seriously. i cant like anyone. its lame. either there too far. or they find someone new. or they leave me for drugs. or some shit. so i give up on that too. fuck it all. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkers. hm. i want to go to LA to see Cole this weekend but i doubt i go, i want to go to San Diego to see erica too, damn i miss her alot alot alot alot!!! these past few weekends were okay i suppose. got sick from someone i REALLY fucking adore but he dislikes me b/c i smoke/drink(use to) so whatev im over it. i miss him alot though. i didnt get to say goodbye to him when i left this time. oh fucking well.