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last night was awful. i guess i was PMSing, but i seriously felt so depressed.
i knew what was happening. i went to bed pretty early, but watched tv, because i had that feeling that i wasnt going to be able to sleep. 3 hours later it was midnight. i turned off the tv and soon after started crying. i cried until around 3:30 in the morning. i guess i fell asleep then. i woke up around 4:30 and thought about how i had to get up in 2 hours. screwed.
i fell back asleep pretty soon and got up at 6:30. a total of 3 interrupted hours. awesome.
and i have the same feeling right now. it's 8:30. i feel anxious and dreadful at the same time. i really dont want to go to bed because i know it's going to be a repeat of last night. ugh.
i feel lonely. and hurt. i dont know why i feel hurt but i do. i feel lost. i have this longing for something i once had, and everything inside me wants to be in that memory, relive the moments.
please help me get through this night.
sdflkjasdf.
i knew what was happening. i went to bed pretty early, but watched tv, because i had that feeling that i wasnt going to be able to sleep. 3 hours later it was midnight. i turned off the tv and soon after started crying. i cried until around 3:30 in the morning. i guess i fell asleep then. i woke up around 4:30 and thought about how i had to get up in 2 hours. screwed.
i fell back asleep pretty soon and got up at 6:30. a total of 3 interrupted hours. awesome.
and i have the same feeling right now. it's 8:30. i feel anxious and dreadful at the same time. i really dont want to go to bed because i know it's going to be a repeat of last night. ugh.
i feel lonely. and hurt. i dont know why i feel hurt but i do. i feel lost. i have this longing for something i once had, and everything inside me wants to be in that memory, relive the moments.
please help me get through this night.
sdflkjasdf.