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Ya know, sometimes, you just have to stop worrying about other people, no matter how much you love them. People are gonna do what they want to do, and no matter how ignorant I think it is, they're the ones who have to live with the consequences, not me, so why should I worry about it? I wish you could give a person self worth. It's so hard for me to comprehend people not thinking/knowing they deserve to be happy.
Poor John. I see all these horrible things happen in relationships around me, and I take it out on him, because even though he's wonderful to me now, (don't get me wrong, we have our problems just like everyone, but never anything major) I sometimes feel like it's inevitable that he'll fuck me over someday. I'm so mean to him sometimes just to make sure I have the upper hand, because in my experience, women who treat their men well/do everything for them, get cheated on/treated like shit. Nice logic, huh? I love him, and things are great with us...but it's like I'm just waiting around for when it won't be.
I'm letting it go. It's not my problem. John will be home in less than a month, and I've decided to concentrate on that as best I can. I dare you to try to ruin my excitement=)
Poor John. I see all these horrible things happen in relationships around me, and I take it out on him, because even though he's wonderful to me now, (don't get me wrong, we have our problems just like everyone, but never anything major) I sometimes feel like it's inevitable that he'll fuck me over someday. I'm so mean to him sometimes just to make sure I have the upper hand, because in my experience, women who treat their men well/do everything for them, get cheated on/treated like shit. Nice logic, huh? I love him, and things are great with us...but it's like I'm just waiting around for when it won't be.
I'm letting it go. It's not my problem. John will be home in less than a month, and I've decided to concentrate on that as best I can. I dare you to try to ruin my excitement=)