"the natural music of the mind was what he was after"
I bought an amazing book last night: "Subterranean Kerouac: The Hidden Life of Jack Kerouac". This man is amazing.
I also started looking up apartments and pricing in New Orleans.
That's where I want to go.
I called Amanda and asked her if she just wanted to go. leave with me. and she was naturally a little hesitant, but i think she ultimately might actually do it.
Ideally, I wish I could get Sarah and Megan to go with us.
We could get a house.
I just want to be with those girls right now.
Those girls are the most substantial things I've had in my life so far.
I think all of us out together would be really exhilarating and it's something we'd never be able to do together again.
But, I have to keep telling myself that it's only my dream, not theirs.
Not everyone wants to drop everything and leave.
And part of the problem is I'd want to do everything independent of our parents and that's not possible for a lot of people our age right now. Especially if that means they'd stop paying for school. I personally don't have to worry about school because my $58 tuition fee is hardly something to worry about. Either way, I guess I'm asking a lot of people when I ask them to move out and basically grow up and be independent (obviously I've already made that mistake once), but on the other hand it's hard to do alone. Like the book I'm reading, "Kerouac lacked the nerve to defy convention himself and depended on "madmen" like Cru, and later Neal, to lead him into adventure."
I need my Cru and my Neal.
oh yes, and Hayes Carll is playing at Floores next Friday and I think everyone should go because he's incredible!
I also started looking up apartments and pricing in New Orleans.
That's where I want to go.
I called Amanda and asked her if she just wanted to go. leave with me. and she was naturally a little hesitant, but i think she ultimately might actually do it.
Ideally, I wish I could get Sarah and Megan to go with us.
We could get a house.
I just want to be with those girls right now.
Those girls are the most substantial things I've had in my life so far.
I think all of us out together would be really exhilarating and it's something we'd never be able to do together again.
But, I have to keep telling myself that it's only my dream, not theirs.
Not everyone wants to drop everything and leave.
And part of the problem is I'd want to do everything independent of our parents and that's not possible for a lot of people our age right now. Especially if that means they'd stop paying for school. I personally don't have to worry about school because my $58 tuition fee is hardly something to worry about. Either way, I guess I'm asking a lot of people when I ask them to move out and basically grow up and be independent (obviously I've already made that mistake once), but on the other hand it's hard to do alone. Like the book I'm reading, "Kerouac lacked the nerve to defy convention himself and depended on "madmen" like Cru, and later Neal, to lead him into adventure."
I need my Cru and my Neal.
oh yes, and Hayes Carll is playing at Floores next Friday and I think everyone should go because he's incredible!