Just close your eyes, you'll never see me crashing down
So it's come to this.
My life is a wreck.
It started down the spiral this semester.
Things I took to be fun and non-problematic have become so now.
The thing that I swore would never be a problem for me has become the biggest one.
I've done things that I will never be proud of, or even be just OK with this semester.
And, for the most part, they were done when I was drunk.
I need to slow down with the drinking.
I don't need to drink as much, or as many times a week as I have been doing.
I'm not going to say im going to stop drinking altogether, because I wouldn't be able to keep that promise, and I need more successes in my life, not failures.
I've started to become someone that I never wanted to be.
And, honestly, it disgusts me.
I've left the best friend I have ever had in my entire life behind at a party.
With no way of getting back to her dorm.
I've brought my other best friend's worst enemy to a party where I knew my friend would be.
I have no excuses,
or at least, no good excuses.
I've been a terrible friend and I wish i could take everything back.
But I can't.
I have to deal with what I have done.
And I have to hope that my friends forgive me.
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I have seen so many loving faces
They turn back and leave with looks of regret
The road goes and I am finding home in it
My life is a wreck.
It started down the spiral this semester.
Things I took to be fun and non-problematic have become so now.
The thing that I swore would never be a problem for me has become the biggest one.
I've done things that I will never be proud of, or even be just OK with this semester.
And, for the most part, they were done when I was drunk.
I need to slow down with the drinking.
I don't need to drink as much, or as many times a week as I have been doing.
I'm not going to say im going to stop drinking altogether, because I wouldn't be able to keep that promise, and I need more successes in my life, not failures.
I've started to become someone that I never wanted to be.
And, honestly, it disgusts me.
I've left the best friend I have ever had in my entire life behind at a party.
With no way of getting back to her dorm.
I've brought my other best friend's worst enemy to a party where I knew my friend would be.
I have no excuses,
or at least, no good excuses.
I've been a terrible friend and I wish i could take everything back.
But I can't.
I have to deal with what I have done.
And I have to hope that my friends forgive me.
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I have seen so many loving faces
They turn back and leave with looks of regret
The road goes and I am finding home in it