so called "Friends"
Well i guess friends that u thougth u were sooo close to, arn't really that close anymore:i.e. Lori, Gian and Josh. WE have all grown apart....i found out that Lori is going to Miami to see Gina, adn then they are flying back together....yeah its like they don't care if they ever hangout with me...i can't really say that i don't mind...but it hurts....me lori and gina use to go off all the time...also me and JOsh....he hangouts w/ Lori all the time...but i have told Gina that I would love to go to Miami...and they don't invite me...I would love to go down there....i mean...we use to be all so close...we all went to the beach together and went camping and had so much fun..i though that we were all close..but i guess not...i just want to get out of Huntersville, i wish that lady would come and buy us out....but she hasn't called back in a while...i don't have to go to work tomorrow....so i am going shopping....I ordered a fake louis vuitton purse......its pretty it has to come from california.....long way...its was like $70 ...lol...what can i say i love purses....i am excited abou this coming school year.....i hope to meet some new friends in all my art classes....so that i don't have to deal w/ this same crap....i wish i was going to UNCA in the fall but i am not.....i wish i was soooo hard...i want out of here...i want diferent friends...different people to hang around....i just want something more...Josh told me that he was depressed..and said about what...and he said about not havning a car or licenese...i was like if thats all u have to be depressed about be happy....let me tell u some reasons why i get depressed//i am at a school i don't want to be at...i have never had a boyfriend.......i am scared that i am going to die alone...i am scared that i am never going to get to Asheville...i am scared that i am not going to achieve my goals....i don;t like the way i look, b/c lets face it i am almost 20...and have never had a boyfriend..so that shoudl say something....i am tired of my friends...i am tired of the same day to day thing...i am tired of losing things that i care about...i would give anything to hug all my grandparents again....i miss them all SOOO much....i miss my 2 aunts and one uncle....Urnest<--was like a second father...i miss Don(i didnt give the fish any water, i couldn't find their wate bowl)...i miss mr and mrs garris<--thanks for telling me about my g-pa....i miss Mr. Presson i just saw him in september last year...he was at my g-pa's funneral...and he looked fine.. alittle older...but now he is gone..he was a great friend to my family...I miss the peopel that i went to school with that have died....Ryan and Steven....they were soo young.....I miss my grandparents most of all...I miss going to Baldy..it feels like hes still up there...I miss my grandma Rosa.....i was sooo much like her...i miss g-ma McAualy.....she kept me when i had chicken poxs...i miss her yelling at us for getting ice cream sandwhiches....i miss going to there hosues for christmas.....I miss all those that have come and gone...I miss them all so much....my grandparents were soooo great....the cookouts....going to the fish camp...playing simmon says in the play room up stairs....i miss things....i have thought about going in the air force....but i couldn't make it...soemone yelling at me all the time..that don't work for..and getting at the butt crack of dawn....well anyways...i am tired of typing....and i am just ready for something more....something different.......asta
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