just thinking...
we had to show flohre our report cards. He said he tried to find a comment to put on there that says "needs to smile more"...it just kinda go me thinking. I do need to smile more. I need to let go of all of the little things I hold on to that I know I can't have and just move on with life. I need to just be myself and stop being so paranoid. Sometimes, I'm just not myself. I've been realizing that lately, I'm not being as..well...I guess you could say "adorable" or "loving" or "sweet" as I used to be. I want to, but I can't find it in myself to.
I was reading Amanda's old LJ and it made me kinda sad. I feel like I could never live up to her ex, K. I just feel plain not good enough. I hate it, but it's true.
I just need to stop trying to make myself into a better person b/c it's not working. I just need to step back and be Lauren.
anyway...omfg. Misty(assistant basketball coach) really pissed me off today. I was sitting beside her and drinking a drink, right, and I burped really loud ((like I normally do)) and she was just like "that was disrespectful" and bunch of shit about how her son has more manners than I do. Fucking bitch. I don't need to be fucking polite unless I'm around someone that I like, and I really don't like her. And I was talking about me having hardcore jealousy issues ((I was talking to Ashley about stuff)) and she had the fucking "disrespect" do stick her fucking nose in my damn conversation. I was like "excuse me, bitch?" ugh. people like that make me mad. All she fucking does is brag about herself and how good her fucking kids are. UUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok. I'm done bitching.
--lauren.
btw...I like the word "fuck"
I was reading Amanda's old LJ and it made me kinda sad. I feel like I could never live up to her ex, K. I just feel plain not good enough. I hate it, but it's true.
I just need to stop trying to make myself into a better person b/c it's not working. I just need to step back and be Lauren.
anyway...omfg. Misty(assistant basketball coach) really pissed me off today. I was sitting beside her and drinking a drink, right, and I burped really loud ((like I normally do)) and she was just like "that was disrespectful" and bunch of shit about how her son has more manners than I do. Fucking bitch. I don't need to be fucking polite unless I'm around someone that I like, and I really don't like her. And I was talking about me having hardcore jealousy issues ((I was talking to Ashley about stuff)) and she had the fucking "disrespect" do stick her fucking nose in my damn conversation. I was like "excuse me, bitch?" ugh. people like that make me mad. All she fucking does is brag about herself and how good her fucking kids are. UUUUGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!
ok. I'm done bitching.
--lauren.
btw...I like the word "fuck"