school and shhtuff
this week has been hectic. here lately i have been going to work after school which usually is no big deal. i've been doing that since my junior year in high school. i haven't dealt with it very well in the past. it makes for long days. here lately it's been a little different. i go to school from 7:30 to 9:30 and then i work usually 11-3 or 4. anyway. the change up in the schedule has been interesting. it will be cool to see how i do this semester. there's not as much angst toward school this time around. i have found the past few weeks sort of peaceful in it's own way. because when i leave my house on m/w/f mornings no one is up and my class has only about 10 people in it. my night class is the same way. but it seems, as trite as it might sound, that i'm sort of on my own little adventure each day. every semester before i have had someone doing the college thing with me. there was someone to see or go to school with everyday. it is a cool feeling to do things this way. i have a sense of control and confidence that i am responsible for my school and how it will turn out this semester. there is no one that is going to hold my hand and tell me to go to class. there is no one that is going to be my skipping partner. i've kind of come to this realization these past couple of days that the education that i do have has carried me as far as it will carry me and it is up to me to carry out the rest of my evolution as a person. it sounds simple, but it is a tiny epiphany in my head. i think i always new that i was responsible for all of this, but i was living somewhere else for a while. it is refreshing. hopefully this is more than just "new beginnings" talking. oh well i must head to class. hope everyone is well. until next time !