fucking men;;;;;;
So we have been home for 8 weeks tomorrow and you would think some people would learn the babies schedule or at least create one? FUCK NO! I love Rob but GDI when you sleep all day and keep the baby asleep with you.. he doesnt wanna sleep at night. Then he gets all pissy at night because he doesnt know why Sebastian doesnt wanna sleep.. well .. let me think... he fucking slept till 12 after his last feeding.. he doesnt wanna sleep again after taking his naps. Why would you wanna sleep all day when you are suppose to have parents that play with you??
We had already decided on a schedule of care.. I am going back to work on the first and hes off three days of the week. So while I am at work he will be staying home with Sebastian.. Im starting to think I should really work at finding a daycare and just letting him go. I am worried that Rob really can't handle it ...
Sebastian wakes up in the middle of the night and I take him into the living room and feed him. I rock him to sleep again and sit with him in my arms for about 30 mins.. it all depends.
Once I know hes ready I put him back in his crib and then try to go back to sleep myself. He wakes up after Rob leaves for work and I change him. We usually just end up in the living room again for another bottle.. and if he falls asleep we take a nap together on my bed. ( he loves being close to me)
Then durning the rest of the day we play or sing.. depends on whats going on. I gave up my online action game because he is more important. I have learned to listen to his cries and know what he wants.. or have a good idea of what he needs.
Today is a day that I would normally be at work and so on those days I try to let Rob run the show. He woke up with him and put him back to sleep... then when I check on them at 11 they are still asleep. (pissed me off)
Then he wakes up and he hands Sebastian to me.. tells me its my turn.. turns on his ps2... are you fucking kidding me?
I give him back and tell him I am going out to mail some stuff.. plus its his day.
I go.. come back and he is sitting on the floor with sebby. So.. I put the stuff away that I got and then sit down to check my email. Sebby starts to cry and he keeps feeding him. He props the bottle up so he can continue to play ffxi.. (the game i have dropped for the baby)
then gets mad because sebby wont lay still and drink his bottle. Then out of the blue Tyson barks because he hears something and Rob hits him telling him to shut up..
that was the last straw!
I grabbed sebby and told tyson to come with me. .. I am now in Sebastians room with him and the puppy. After about 30 mins of play on the floor.. Sebastian feel asleep. No bottle... no crying.. just play. how fucking hard was that?? IMPOSSIBLE for some people because playing was more important. He would stop to try and burp sebby and get him situated but thats not what needed to happen. All his son wanted was to be held and payed attention to.. ahhhhh! I know I am gonna go nuts but maybe his mother just needs to come live with us.. there goes my nerves... if I didnt love him I would pack up and move home to raise him with my family.. they would not do this to sebby. I know he means well and loves him but its funny how he tells me he wants to be more involved then his father was and in a way isnt.. i know for a fact he does alot for a new father.. most men would not wake up at night to feedings and he does.. but damn.. pay more attention to your son and not log on to Rock band as soon as you get home. If this is the way its gonna be when I go back to work there is no point in me going back. I want his developement to grow... ahhhhh .. i so needed to vent and i feel much better now. time to check on sebby.
We had already decided on a schedule of care.. I am going back to work on the first and hes off three days of the week. So while I am at work he will be staying home with Sebastian.. Im starting to think I should really work at finding a daycare and just letting him go. I am worried that Rob really can't handle it ...
Sebastian wakes up in the middle of the night and I take him into the living room and feed him. I rock him to sleep again and sit with him in my arms for about 30 mins.. it all depends.
Once I know hes ready I put him back in his crib and then try to go back to sleep myself. He wakes up after Rob leaves for work and I change him. We usually just end up in the living room again for another bottle.. and if he falls asleep we take a nap together on my bed. ( he loves being close to me)
Then durning the rest of the day we play or sing.. depends on whats going on. I gave up my online action game because he is more important. I have learned to listen to his cries and know what he wants.. or have a good idea of what he needs.
Today is a day that I would normally be at work and so on those days I try to let Rob run the show. He woke up with him and put him back to sleep... then when I check on them at 11 they are still asleep. (pissed me off)
Then he wakes up and he hands Sebastian to me.. tells me its my turn.. turns on his ps2... are you fucking kidding me?
I give him back and tell him I am going out to mail some stuff.. plus its his day.
I go.. come back and he is sitting on the floor with sebby. So.. I put the stuff away that I got and then sit down to check my email. Sebby starts to cry and he keeps feeding him. He props the bottle up so he can continue to play ffxi.. (the game i have dropped for the baby)
then gets mad because sebby wont lay still and drink his bottle. Then out of the blue Tyson barks because he hears something and Rob hits him telling him to shut up..
that was the last straw!
I grabbed sebby and told tyson to come with me. .. I am now in Sebastians room with him and the puppy. After about 30 mins of play on the floor.. Sebastian feel asleep. No bottle... no crying.. just play. how fucking hard was that?? IMPOSSIBLE for some people because playing was more important. He would stop to try and burp sebby and get him situated but thats not what needed to happen. All his son wanted was to be held and payed attention to.. ahhhhh! I know I am gonna go nuts but maybe his mother just needs to come live with us.. there goes my nerves... if I didnt love him I would pack up and move home to raise him with my family.. they would not do this to sebby. I know he means well and loves him but its funny how he tells me he wants to be more involved then his father was and in a way isnt.. i know for a fact he does alot for a new father.. most men would not wake up at night to feedings and he does.. but damn.. pay more attention to your son and not log on to Rock band as soon as you get home. If this is the way its gonna be when I go back to work there is no point in me going back. I want his developement to grow... ahhhhh .. i so needed to vent and i feel much better now. time to check on sebby.