i dont cry
i guess i havent updated in a few days. ive been kinda... well not busy... just been spending some "alone" time with myself. hmm that sounds really wrong. anyways. last night i hung out with rachael. that was cool. strawberries rach? and some chocolate? in a hotel room? okay im done with that... thats just sick. lol.
so ive kinda snapped out of my little "depressed" mode. in a sense. although today on the bus to windham, i started to cry. and im not exactly sure why. i was just sitting there sideways in the seat and i started crying. it was really weird. so i get into work, and everybody says hi to me, and i just kinda waved and kept walking, because i was upset, and it sucks that i dont know what about. so wanda comes out back and she starts talking with me, and shes like "look up" so i did, and shes like "jesse, have you been crying?" i was like "no i dont cry". of course she didnt believe me. so she tells jeremie that i was crying, and you know what he says? "jess is too tough to cry". HAHA! oh wow that made me laugh oh so very hard. and joe was really concerned. and he gave me his number and told me if he needed to talk, then i could call him. which i thought was just the nicest thing that somebodys ever done for me. :)
so i guess my uncle joe is coming down friday night. which means im going to bed right when i get home from work. i planned on it anyways. but i never see uncle joe, and i know if we get talking about school, hes going to be right up my butt about it. hes worse than my parents for christ sakes. and i'll never get to bed. and i have to work at nine saturday morning.
i guess stews coming back april 17th? i think thats when mom told me. thats cool. i guess he called dad and asked if he could stay here. and god damnit, im hiding my jammie pants. lol.
rach, thanks for last night. i really needed a night away from crap. only it would have been nice to have my shoes when you decided to abandon me in the parking lot... dildo.
im out... night
loves
so ive kinda snapped out of my little "depressed" mode. in a sense. although today on the bus to windham, i started to cry. and im not exactly sure why. i was just sitting there sideways in the seat and i started crying. it was really weird. so i get into work, and everybody says hi to me, and i just kinda waved and kept walking, because i was upset, and it sucks that i dont know what about. so wanda comes out back and she starts talking with me, and shes like "look up" so i did, and shes like "jesse, have you been crying?" i was like "no i dont cry". of course she didnt believe me. so she tells jeremie that i was crying, and you know what he says? "jess is too tough to cry". HAHA! oh wow that made me laugh oh so very hard. and joe was really concerned. and he gave me his number and told me if he needed to talk, then i could call him. which i thought was just the nicest thing that somebodys ever done for me. :)
so i guess my uncle joe is coming down friday night. which means im going to bed right when i get home from work. i planned on it anyways. but i never see uncle joe, and i know if we get talking about school, hes going to be right up my butt about it. hes worse than my parents for christ sakes. and i'll never get to bed. and i have to work at nine saturday morning.
i guess stews coming back april 17th? i think thats when mom told me. thats cool. i guess he called dad and asked if he could stay here. and god damnit, im hiding my jammie pants. lol.
rach, thanks for last night. i really needed a night away from crap. only it would have been nice to have my shoes when you decided to abandon me in the parking lot... dildo.
im out... night
loves