consternation

[eevilyoungflesh]

I cannot sleep anymore. None of these student loans are working out, so I cannot register for classes. Okay, I lied. Two hours, maybe. Writing in my real journal more than ever now. Extremely depressing, exhausting day, and it is only ten a.m.

Lee Bontecou makes neat things, and I am David Bowie's breakfast cereal.

Did I see a moment with you
In a half lit world
I'm frightened to believe
But I must try
If I stumble if I fall
I'm reaching out in this mourning air

Have I got the strength to ask
Beyond the window
I feel this fear alone
Until we have
Total honesty
If I tremble or fall
I'm reaching out in this mourning air

Should I feel a moment with you
To softly whisper
I crave nothing else so much
Longing to reveal
Total honesty
I can feel your touch
I'm reaching out in this mourning air

I'm reaching out in this mourning air