Bee bee bee beep!!!
Finished teaching yesterday. Now I don't have to spend all my free time doing half-assed preparations or feeling guilty for not-doing said preparations.
Inner state has been all over the place recently. I'm trying to do this baseline mellow thing, but I'm up! I'm down! I'm up!
It's actually given me some cross-insights into both lands, my subterranean lair of doooooooooom and my Cloud 13. I wondered, wandering in the under-lair, what it would feel like to not have debt hanging over me. Then I remembered that's what Cloud 13 is like. The debt's still there, my other problems are still present- I'm just far better at forgetting them completely.
I was walking in my lair and wondering why I was still paying for an office, when I had spent so little time chasing clients, creating new stuff, or figuring out how to incorporate a possible partner in a fair and legal way. But here on Cloud 13, inspiration is just in reach and the other two tasks seem no more daunting than hurling myself over the rabbit fence to get to the living room.
The fence exists because Moonshadow has full run of the kitchen, bathroom, and front hall areas. Living with a rex rabbit is a total trip. He says "hello hello hello!" by running around you in faster and faster circles. I love him, I love patting him and hugging him. Mostly, I love watching him, especially when he's peeking his head out of the box Julius made for him.
I have a more cohesive post in me somewhere, maybe it'll work its way out later today.
Inner state has been all over the place recently. I'm trying to do this baseline mellow thing, but I'm up! I'm down! I'm up!
It's actually given me some cross-insights into both lands, my subterranean lair of doooooooooom and my Cloud 13. I wondered, wandering in the under-lair, what it would feel like to not have debt hanging over me. Then I remembered that's what Cloud 13 is like. The debt's still there, my other problems are still present- I'm just far better at forgetting them completely.
I was walking in my lair and wondering why I was still paying for an office, when I had spent so little time chasing clients, creating new stuff, or figuring out how to incorporate a possible partner in a fair and legal way. But here on Cloud 13, inspiration is just in reach and the other two tasks seem no more daunting than hurling myself over the rabbit fence to get to the living room.
The fence exists because Moonshadow has full run of the kitchen, bathroom, and front hall areas. Living with a rex rabbit is a total trip. He says "hello hello hello!" by running around you in faster and faster circles. I love him, I love patting him and hugging him. Mostly, I love watching him, especially when he's peeking his head out of the box Julius made for him.
I have a more cohesive post in me somewhere, maybe it'll work its way out later today.