Let's have a thoughtful moment shall we?
Ok so yeah..shits been messed up. Let's just say that..mike has been fucking with my head..like you wouldnt believe..but i also let him do that so i cant really complain or piss and moan about it..but lets hope im strong enough to forget it all and move on now..its funny..not to sound full of myself or anything..but i have guys that want me..yet none of them..no matter how hard i try..are him..or are what i want..i guess im trying to replace him and its way too soon..i know...ive been trying to hurt him and hes been trying to hurt me..its a shitty cycle...but that brings me to my next point..most of you will just think of it as another jill rambling but theres a point..i swear..and only one person will understand this part of my post but its ok..
I'm speechless, it seems like there are a million emotions running through me all at once. I dont know which way is up and i dont know what to do. I wish i could describe the way i feel when im with you, but words arent enough. I wish there was a way to show you..but i can't. I'm afraid to go back again. I know that i could end up doing something stupid. Im unsure about everything i should be sure about. I know that if i tried to figure it out the solution would be there. But my head and my heart are fighting for my attention..i cant tell them apart anymore. I'm falling and the worst part is i know youll always be there to catch me..why do you give me this power?
So yeah..working a lot this week and from now on. Mikes gone in a few days..thank god! I'm gonna visit CB again and see Bridget and Bill and Brandon soon...I also need to go to the beach..and in july i get to see my brad..holy shit do i miss him! So thats my story for tonight..
Until we meet again!
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things any worse
I'm speechless, it seems like there are a million emotions running through me all at once. I dont know which way is up and i dont know what to do. I wish i could describe the way i feel when im with you, but words arent enough. I wish there was a way to show you..but i can't. I'm afraid to go back again. I know that i could end up doing something stupid. Im unsure about everything i should be sure about. I know that if i tried to figure it out the solution would be there. But my head and my heart are fighting for my attention..i cant tell them apart anymore. I'm falling and the worst part is i know youll always be there to catch me..why do you give me this power?
So yeah..working a lot this week and from now on. Mikes gone in a few days..thank god! I'm gonna visit CB again and see Bridget and Bill and Brandon soon...I also need to go to the beach..and in july i get to see my brad..holy shit do i miss him! So thats my story for tonight..
Until we meet again!
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things any worse