why do i??

[eerrrkadrums]

well today was different. i got to see my friend that was just diagnosed with leukemia, i just got to see him for the first time since he has been in the hospital. it kinda sux because i didnt take the time to get to know him. he got on my nerves sometimes so i just avoided him and i kinda hate myself a little because i do that to alot of people i hang out with them until they get on my nerves and then its like i move on. i just dont get it. i guess this is my wake up call to get past the outer shell of people because they probably have an awesome personality underneath but how would i know i dont even allow myself enough time to get to know them. i just shut them out once they get a little annoying. i am just going to stop doing this i will fight the urge next time to avoid someone i will just walk up to them and show them that i think they are special. man i really like this because i can just say what i think. its cool
Errrka!