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Its almost over. One more paper due tommrow morning. I have to complete at least 10 pages. Its 11pm and I have negative motivation.
I feel like since I haven't exerted myself all semester I don't really need the summer break. Aside from this paper I've had it fairly easy.
Most of all, a large part of me just doesn't want to go back home. Even though I usually look foward to working, this time, not so much. It sounds weird but I'm scared to work and see the results of not making enough money. I have to pay a lot more for rent next semester because of one less roomate. I am really looking foward to having my own room in my own apartment but at the moment its stressful thinking about how I'm going to pay for it with a part time job. I know I can get additional some help from my parents but I also need to make my own funds. I want to work, make enough money and still be able to get that days that I want off in order to do whatever it is I want to do. Thats ideal and not realistic.
Responsibility, whats that.
I feel like since I haven't exerted myself all semester I don't really need the summer break. Aside from this paper I've had it fairly easy.
Most of all, a large part of me just doesn't want to go back home. Even though I usually look foward to working, this time, not so much. It sounds weird but I'm scared to work and see the results of not making enough money. I have to pay a lot more for rent next semester because of one less roomate. I am really looking foward to having my own room in my own apartment but at the moment its stressful thinking about how I'm going to pay for it with a part time job. I know I can get additional some help from my parents but I also need to make my own funds. I want to work, make enough money and still be able to get that days that I want off in order to do whatever it is I want to do. Thats ideal and not realistic.
Responsibility, whats that.