GRR
What I despise most is people who can't see their own failings. When something fucks up, all they can see is how the other party involved was at fault. How the other party didn't do enough, didn't keep up to their side of the bargain... never once taking a moment to introspect and consider that partly, the 'blame' is to be shared.
I may have walked away, but I walked away with my eyes wide open. I could see the good and the bad, and ultimately decided the bad far outweighed the good, and so I walked. I didn't have to shit on things to make it easier to leave. Things really weren't great for me. I didn't want to say too much, for fear of hurting you, but also because I knew how blind you are to your own failings and hence knew that it was pointless attempting to make you see the light.
All I can say is that every day since has made me even more convinced that my decision was right. It wasn't that I changed my mind, but that circumstances changed, and the entire relationship changed, for the worse. I thought it was just the circumstances forcing us to change, but now I see that the circumstances merely threw up a side of you I thoroughly dislike and despise.
I so want to shout at you. To tell you exactly why I walked away. But I won't, because unlike you, I actually walk the talk. So I'll grit my teeth and hold back everything that was bugging me all those months, and let you play the petulant victim.
Things like that make me think twice about how happy I am with SH. I really enjoy his company and we get along very well. He is a lovely person. But the last few years have taught me that we never really know a person until things get ugly.
I may have walked away, but I walked away with my eyes wide open. I could see the good and the bad, and ultimately decided the bad far outweighed the good, and so I walked. I didn't have to shit on things to make it easier to leave. Things really weren't great for me. I didn't want to say too much, for fear of hurting you, but also because I knew how blind you are to your own failings and hence knew that it was pointless attempting to make you see the light.
All I can say is that every day since has made me even more convinced that my decision was right. It wasn't that I changed my mind, but that circumstances changed, and the entire relationship changed, for the worse. I thought it was just the circumstances forcing us to change, but now I see that the circumstances merely threw up a side of you I thoroughly dislike and despise.
I so want to shout at you. To tell you exactly why I walked away. But I won't, because unlike you, I actually walk the talk. So I'll grit my teeth and hold back everything that was bugging me all those months, and let you play the petulant victim.
Things like that make me think twice about how happy I am with SH. I really enjoy his company and we get along very well. He is a lovely person. But the last few years have taught me that we never really know a person until things get ugly.