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I am just back from my sojourn to Fremont NH with Colleen for the Thanksgiving break. I feel rested but not quite and not ready to dive back in to it all for the next few weeks until Christmas. I need to buy a plane ticket to Virginia and plan out when and if Colleen can make it down for any part of the break and when and if Ellen might be home.
Anxiety has been creeping in and I have had little choice but to just let it... not quite sure even close to what I might be doing next year and while that may be months away and I realize I should live more in the moment I am becoming anxious about the possible neccessity of preparation for whatever place I may be going to and what ever I may be doing.
applying for regional NH grant, staying in NH to keep up my painting here?
staying, painting, living in newmarket, working some menial labor sort of job
moving home and helping rents set up a more sustainable farm
moving out west
teaching somewhere & painting
buying a bed & breakfast with my sister and starting a studio/bakery/inn
sleeping forever
escaping to italy
buying a little house somewhere and raising goats
the list goes on.
Anxiety has been creeping in and I have had little choice but to just let it... not quite sure even close to what I might be doing next year and while that may be months away and I realize I should live more in the moment I am becoming anxious about the possible neccessity of preparation for whatever place I may be going to and what ever I may be doing.
applying for regional NH grant, staying in NH to keep up my painting here?
staying, painting, living in newmarket, working some menial labor sort of job
moving home and helping rents set up a more sustainable farm
moving out west
teaching somewhere & painting
buying a bed & breakfast with my sister and starting a studio/bakery/inn
sleeping forever
escaping to italy
buying a little house somewhere and raising goats
the list goes on.