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i wanted to feel validated. i wanted every single moment of my meaningless life to have some outside recognition.
security through other people. recognition through praise, achievement... anything.
when a life really is meaningless. when we can truely sit alone our whole lives or sit with others and in the end it really doesn't matter. that is how we know. that is how we know that as we slowly become the dust under the feet of others, it really can't matter.
there is too much hope for something else, and not enough realization of true meaninglessness.
and if i am nothing. and no immortal being can validate who i am, my own mortality is only equal to yours, and hers, and his, and everyone elses. we are not more or less. we are not better or worse for anything we have done.
there are those of us who have attempted to reach a moral high-ground. there are those people who have made changes to the "greater good." but if it all goes away, there is still no mode of measurement.
and with only our own feelings and what we have been taught can we measure our own value and if it even exists at all.
and i would argue that we may feel that there is always some meaning to seek and discover. but it is a search that will always result in different answers because one truth does not exist to qualify our lives.
security through other people. recognition through praise, achievement... anything.
when a life really is meaningless. when we can truely sit alone our whole lives or sit with others and in the end it really doesn't matter. that is how we know. that is how we know that as we slowly become the dust under the feet of others, it really can't matter.
there is too much hope for something else, and not enough realization of true meaninglessness.
and if i am nothing. and no immortal being can validate who i am, my own mortality is only equal to yours, and hers, and his, and everyone elses. we are not more or less. we are not better or worse for anything we have done.
there are those of us who have attempted to reach a moral high-ground. there are those people who have made changes to the "greater good." but if it all goes away, there is still no mode of measurement.
and with only our own feelings and what we have been taught can we measure our own value and if it even exists at all.
and i would argue that we may feel that there is always some meaning to seek and discover. but it is a search that will always result in different answers because one truth does not exist to qualify our lives.