hard to beleive i would let myself get so wrapped into you.
I think I made a huge mistake letting it go, but I don't fucking care anymore. I'm about to go away to school and I don't want to sit around and wait for something that's never going to show up. I don't even know if we're talking. If we're not then oh well, he lost me and I lost him. And maybe one night when we come across each other at a party, which will be when we're both over it, then I will make the effort to say hello because I know he won't. But as for now, I'll just let it go and do my own thing. I am aware that I will miss him too.
On a different note, I'm fine I guess. My life has made no drastic twists or turns in the past two weeks. I only have my dad left to shop for, but my brother asked me to do his shopping for my sister, mom and dad. I said okay, because every other year he just gets us gift cards. So, that's all with christmas shopping.
School is ridiculous anymore. A girl kicked a window in yesterday and a couple days ago someone got stabbed with a pencil in the leg, inside the bathroom. A boy and girl fought. Someone got arrested for god knows why. It's bad when I don't feel remotely safe in a place that I have to attend everyday.
Work is work. My manager got pissed at me because I wouldn't pick up the phone the other day. I'm scared of phones and I told her. She'll have to accept it, and it's also not my job. I don't care if she's mad at me. She gave me a bussing shift though, which I don't mind at all because I'm going to New York the next day, and on top of my 200 and some dollar check, I'll have tips. And I get to wear jeans. So it all works out.
I can't wait to buy my prom dress. I already have it picked out haha.
FFB is home this saturday. I can't wait to see them.
That's pretty much all.
On a different note, I'm fine I guess. My life has made no drastic twists or turns in the past two weeks. I only have my dad left to shop for, but my brother asked me to do his shopping for my sister, mom and dad. I said okay, because every other year he just gets us gift cards. So, that's all with christmas shopping.
School is ridiculous anymore. A girl kicked a window in yesterday and a couple days ago someone got stabbed with a pencil in the leg, inside the bathroom. A boy and girl fought. Someone got arrested for god knows why. It's bad when I don't feel remotely safe in a place that I have to attend everyday.
Work is work. My manager got pissed at me because I wouldn't pick up the phone the other day. I'm scared of phones and I told her. She'll have to accept it, and it's also not my job. I don't care if she's mad at me. She gave me a bussing shift though, which I don't mind at all because I'm going to New York the next day, and on top of my 200 and some dollar check, I'll have tips. And I get to wear jeans. So it all works out.
I can't wait to buy my prom dress. I already have it picked out haha.
FFB is home this saturday. I can't wait to see them.
That's pretty much all.