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[eelizg23]

in my dream last night, jordan came home. and then i woke up and it took me a few minutes to rememeber that he was still gone and is going to be gone for a very long time. usually it's a relief when i wake up and realize that i really don't have aids or whatever other horrible thing i've been dreaming, but i wasn't relieved this time. but this time, he was telling me about how he had been so unhappy, but he wasn't able to tell anyone until he finally got out.

and now i'm home sick from work watching a tivoed lifetime movie. losing money losing money losing money. and my neck is tender and sore. boo.