broken promises
today has been a complete and total waste. so was last night. i have done nothing. no one has called me. nobody. i guess i smell bad or something. it's pretty sad. and not having a car is just helping the situation.
so my dad isn't going to be in town for my birthday. i can't remember the last time he was. and guess why he's not...he's using his plane ticket he was supposed to use to take me to NYC and using it to take my brother to Puerto Rico. does anyone else think that's a little messed up? show of hands?
my dad also promised me he was gonna get me another car or at least try to fix mine. and i understand it was my fault that i wrecked the stupid car and i apologized. but i don't constantly make promises that i don't intend to keep. not only is he saying he won't get me a car soon, but i won't have one for my 1st year of college b/c he thinks that by having a car that i'm gonna go out get drunk, get high, have sex every night and mess my life up. if i wanted to do that...i could've done it already. i don't need to be 2 hours from home to get drunk, get high, or have sex. obviously it's not what i want to do, b/c i could've done it if i wanted to.
everything and just about everybody has disappointed me lately. im so sick and tired of it.
the things that i've wanted the most for the longest time, i'm being denied of. the one thing that i was looking forward to this summer isn't happening. happy birthday to me.
ok, i'm done with my pity party.