thoughts from my heart
I learn and relearn that silence doesnt protect me. an unexpressed life is very painful to myself and to those i love.
don't love halfway
i am learning that loving all the way can ache and sting, but loving HALFWAY doesnt keep me safe ~~ it leaves me with sadness and a hope that could never LIVE OUT LOUD.
Pain~~> go thru it not around it.
waiting, wondering, being afraid. what if pain was a person....ask her "where did you come from?"....ask the pain "why did i chose you?"..."what do you want to show me about myself?".... LISTEN DEEP DOWN....
The body is a fragile thing but the heart can hold onto something forever.
Im afraid to show you who i really am, because if i show you who i really am, you might not like it and thats all i've got.
If we let ourselves be truly seen, than we can be truly loved.
if i had my life to live over...id try to make more mistakes next time. i would relax. i would limber up. id be sillier than i have been this trip. i know of a very few things i would take seriously. i would be less hygenic. i would take more chances, i would take more trips. i would climb mountians, swim more rivers, and watch more sunsets. i would burn more gasoline and eat more ice cream and less beans. i would have actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones. .....oh and moments..ive had my moments, and if i had my life to live over id have more of them in fact id have nothing else just moments one after another instead of living so many years ahead each day.... if i had my life to live over id go places and do things and travel lighter than i have. i would start barefoot earlier in the spring & stay that way later in the fall. i would play hooky more. i wouldnt make such good grades, except by accident. id ride more merry-go-rounds. id pick more dasies. id LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO LIVE!
the truth is we all ache.
we all have growing pains
and wonder if we are
okay and enough + loved.
the thing is-- we are....
REALLY....
without the silver shoes
and leopard print sheets.
WE ARE ENOUGH WITHOUT
ALL THE THINGS WE BUY
to make us much more than
we are or need to be
we are simple
and complex
and rare
AS IS!
take this entry to heart, think about it as you read it and re-read it. i love each and everyone of you. leave me some comments, i love them and no one leaves them. im still real sick and it sucks. went to the doctor yesterday and he said i have bronchitis! ahhhh it really sucks. alright thats all for now. peace
<3 Jess
don't love halfway
i am learning that loving all the way can ache and sting, but loving HALFWAY doesnt keep me safe ~~ it leaves me with sadness and a hope that could never LIVE OUT LOUD.
Pain~~> go thru it not around it.
waiting, wondering, being afraid. what if pain was a person....ask her "where did you come from?"....ask the pain "why did i chose you?"..."what do you want to show me about myself?".... LISTEN DEEP DOWN....
The body is a fragile thing but the heart can hold onto something forever.
Im afraid to show you who i really am, because if i show you who i really am, you might not like it and thats all i've got.
If we let ourselves be truly seen, than we can be truly loved.
if i had my life to live over...id try to make more mistakes next time. i would relax. i would limber up. id be sillier than i have been this trip. i know of a very few things i would take seriously. i would be less hygenic. i would take more chances, i would take more trips. i would climb mountians, swim more rivers, and watch more sunsets. i would burn more gasoline and eat more ice cream and less beans. i would have actual troubles and fewer imaginary ones. .....oh and moments..ive had my moments, and if i had my life to live over id have more of them in fact id have nothing else just moments one after another instead of living so many years ahead each day.... if i had my life to live over id go places and do things and travel lighter than i have. i would start barefoot earlier in the spring & stay that way later in the fall. i would play hooky more. i wouldnt make such good grades, except by accident. id ride more merry-go-rounds. id pick more dasies. id LIVE MY LIFE THE WAY I WANT TO LIVE!
the truth is we all ache.
we all have growing pains
and wonder if we are
okay and enough + loved.
the thing is-- we are....
REALLY....
without the silver shoes
and leopard print sheets.
WE ARE ENOUGH WITHOUT
ALL THE THINGS WE BUY
to make us much more than
we are or need to be
we are simple
and complex
and rare
AS IS!
take this entry to heart, think about it as you read it and re-read it. i love each and everyone of you. leave me some comments, i love them and no one leaves them. im still real sick and it sucks. went to the doctor yesterday and he said i have bronchitis! ahhhh it really sucks. alright thats all for now. peace
<3 Jess