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hey all. im depressed now. mattis being all ignoringness and not taking my advice, and i cant stand seeing him make the same mistake i made with becca. i told him that and he said that becca was a bitch and so i am soooooooo pissed off at him. i fucking miss her. i cant stand thinking about me going on for the next couple of years down there in kentucky without her. i mean we live soo close that it would be impossible for me not to see her every day, and if that happened it would kill me. im seriously weak. okay? i just know that she is the one for me. nothing would be the same witout her. she basically saved me from myself. in more ways than one. now i look around andnothing is the same without her. the thing that kills me even deeper is that we were making plans for a future together. and now what i wanted to do with my life and the person i want to be with mre than anyone are both gone and completely out of reach to me. i cant stand this. i would fucking eternally damn my soul for another minute with her.