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hey evvy body. im at heaven's house and i just woke up, cuz i stayed the night after sumshees. ya its same old same old. but now just to piss all of you off; im fucking depressed right now. my balls got crushed(punched by ariel) 2wice at sumshees last night, and things arent going so great in my relationship with becca. still. you know what, i just think she doesnt like me the way she used to wen we first started going out. in fact i know. and all last night she was hitting on jeremy and kissing him and stuff. not makeing out, like just kiss on the cheek stuff, but still. and i know that she likes him likes him, probably because she finds a way to bring him up in every conversation, she dreams about him *cough cough* i dont need to say more there. fuck i really like her tho. im sorry if i sound too pathetic right now because i am. okay? i'd much rather her just say i hate you and i never want to see you again or say i like u and i want to be with you. i wish sheed be straight with me though. i cant stand this confusion. i cant. its too much right now. why cant i be the man and break up with her? fuck! i dont want to break up with her tho, but then all this shit makes me want to. weev had 1 or 2 romantic moments and thats it. so what am i holding on to?!?!?! god i wish i could be like heaven and not be able to feel love. thers nothing good about love. all that happens is you heart gets ripped out, and you cant live if your hearts ripped out. 90 percent of suicides have been because of broken hearts. im not gonna kill myself, im just acking up my statement. ok i g2g. i hate mi life.