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hey wats up all. i havent posted in the longest time i know. argh im just caught up in a bunch of shit. im going to NY on the 22 of july, and that will be fun. i get to see vinny. he is like my best friend since i was 7 years old, and we still keep in touch. im staying here for at least another year. its my choice. i descided that i dont want to give up what i have here. i have two of the best friends i could ever have, heaven and becca and, then theres matt and jon. but me and them have like not seen eachother in a while. i was just informed that they went to my friend heavens house looking for me. coincidentally when i was at becca's house later that day they came over there and so we all sat on the front porch. for like 2 hours. it was boring and agonizing. evil big word. oh well. ive been feeling really shitty lately because i realize that the friends i have now will probly not be my friends when im older. i have a tendency to drive people away, and i see that. argh!!!!!! it just kills me because the friends i have right now are all i really care about. i stopped caring about myself a while ago. heaven wants to type somthing: 'you say you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed' that is a line from 'my chemical romance! MONKEYS!!!!!!!!!!. ethan:one word. random. hmmmm........ ya. i am going to stop raving on and on about my problems. im bored im going to kidnap becca now. bye!!!!!!