Crying on the floor....

[eeerrriiiccc]

I know so many of you have told me this before, but I can't help it.

I miss him so much and I want so bad to undo this week and go back to sunday... up in the mountains... playing in the snow...

And I'll never have that again, and I hate myself for even dreaming I could...

I want it all to stop hurting...

why can't I stop hurting?

why?