"this year's lovin better last"
i felt like complete shit this morning...in fact, i felt so crappy that after i had to take sean and nicole to school, i went back to bed until noon...i NEVER sleep in that late. anyway, i forced myself to get up, shower, and eat and i felt a lot better after that.
eric's very depressed right now so i decided that cookies will make him feel better. i went the grocery store and bought cookie mix/frosting, and cookie cutters. he should be pleasantly suprised when he, not only gets mail, but a package! i'm also planning on visiting him again in april. he really needs something to look forward too and the wedding is just not cutting it. its too far out of reach, i guess. he asked me the other day what i think we would be doing right now if he had never joined the army. i told him exactly what i thought: we would be living in some stupid apartment w/stupid jobs trying to make a living off of nothing. you know, at first i was upset that he joined the army because it meant not seeing him and the possibility of iraq. but now, i'm actually happy he did it. it means that we have a life now! i never have to worry about money or a place to live! but, i have to say, that if he does go to iraq, i am not going to be happy about it.
i also took sean and nicole to target so sean could spend his birthday money. he bought two spiderman toys and as another special treat, i took them to eat at red robin. i think they had a lot of fun because it was just me and them. kids need that kinda stuff once in awhile.
tomorrow i'm on call for work from eight until noon...i'm hoping and praying that i wont have to go since i feel like crap. w/my luck, i will. damn this stupid job. its terrible because i dont need it and i got it so i wouldn't be bored. well, now that i do have it, i'm still bored! so, on thursday, eric's mom is going to teach me how to do stained glass. i think i'm also going to join bally's (i know, i've been saying that forever) because they have a pool.
i need to go back up to ellensburg again...hopefully in a couple of weekends. :)