questionable actions

[edwinnter]

and as quickly as the first time i saw you, you were gone. we either knew each other for years or didnt know each other at all. the most beautiful person and the most disconnected. every time i was around you my thoughts stumbled one over the other as i tried to comprehend the hold you had on me and the ones close to me. ive never loved someone so much. ive never hated someone so much. and ive never been so fucking indifferent in my life. where am i? and who do you think you are? what kind of place am i living in and when can i leave? will you leave with me if i ask? i dont think i could ask, though. i couldnt trust you with this and i dont think i can trust you again. but how long is a day anyway? how long does a week last in your heart? is every second measured and matched by the beating of our hearts or do we live somewhere in the middle of every metronome around us, biological or otherwise...

im not so sure ill ever understand what kind of friend, lover, acquaintance or family you were to me because, well, as quickly as the first time i saw you, you were gone.

dust in the wind.