trippiness

[edwardthe4th]

well my journals get kinda old since i don't write much. but im hoping to change this. since only the ppl i truely trust know about this site now i can write my true feelings. woot woot. but anywho. theres no more drama with Vicious anymore. that pretty much subsided and hes taken himself out of my life. sux only sometimes b/c now i have all my true friends around and no drama. me and miroku are finished. was sad, not anymore. im actually lovin the single life but i think i need to be kissin more guys. i've kissed 2 gurls so far. no guys yet. :( but im hoping to change that soon. hehehehe well theres a new guy i think i like. hes never been mentioned before. he shall be named Luigi. but hes awesome and fun and cute too. but i think im too different for him. its really cute to see him talk about games the way he does. him and Susej. they both love their games. but yeah. i guess we'll see what happens right? ooooo and i had this weird dream which i kinda interpreted myself so let me know if i did it wrong. but i had a dream that is all mixed up so ill just talk about what part i interpreted. i was with my friends but my attention was mainly toward DramaKing. like doing that whole cuddling holding really close, getting really close to the face, and talking, im not sure if there was kissing i really don't remember. but i was like wtf mate!?! that came out of left field. but in my dream i was happy. and it was weird. but maybe that means i like him. but its bad b/c he has a gf. so what does it mean to u? and a lil more drama. with Whiteboy. hes like totally in love with me. i know thats normally a good thing but i know he wants a relationship and love and right now im not looking for that. i mean it would be nice to date but no love or relationship. and i dont want to hurt his feelings. i mean i care for him but its mainly for friends. and theres no physical attraction. but how do i tell him all this without him completely dying inside? i also don't believe in "giving someone a chance" which is what everyone keeps telling me. i mean u either like a person to date them or u don't. u don't lead someone on by giving them false hope of dating them to "give it a chance" and then find out its horrible then break their heart by leaving. u know? well thats all. gods lets hope. lol. well give me advice on what ever u want. much appreciated. luv ya. bye bies
luv always
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