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someone asked me if i had an ex.
i said yes, one.
they asked, did she break my heart.
i said yes.
but i went on to explain that though she broke my heart i had since moved on. i no longer think about her, i have no feelings for her, i never again felt the way i did when we were together, i had honestly and completely "gotten over her."
it's really easy to talk about, doesn't eat at me at all, doesn't bother me, doesn't get to me.
what does get me are the girls i loved and nothing really came of it, we never went out, never became a couple, i just always had strong feelings for them, they knew this, but circumstances just didn't allow anything to move forth.
one of those girls revisited my thoughts today, and those feelings i had long ago came back to me, and it was very strange because i hadn't thought of her that way in such a long time, i thought i was over her, but i guess i wasn't. i guess its a good thing she lives in another town, but i always wonder . . .what if.
then i fucking wake up
and realize where i am. and i'm very happy where i am. i wouldn't have it any other way. i don't what the "what if" life with her. what could of been. this is what is and what should be. the life i choose is the life i want. i chose to leave her behind. and behind is where she stays. i moved foward.
now thoughts of a new love keep me up at night. staring at the clock, i like where i am.
"The clock on the wall's moving slower
My heart it sinks to the ground
And the storm that I thought would blow over
Clouds the light of the love that I found "
-fool in the rain - led zeppelin
i said yes, one.
they asked, did she break my heart.
i said yes.
but i went on to explain that though she broke my heart i had since moved on. i no longer think about her, i have no feelings for her, i never again felt the way i did when we were together, i had honestly and completely "gotten over her."
it's really easy to talk about, doesn't eat at me at all, doesn't bother me, doesn't get to me.
what does get me are the girls i loved and nothing really came of it, we never went out, never became a couple, i just always had strong feelings for them, they knew this, but circumstances just didn't allow anything to move forth.
one of those girls revisited my thoughts today, and those feelings i had long ago came back to me, and it was very strange because i hadn't thought of her that way in such a long time, i thought i was over her, but i guess i wasn't. i guess its a good thing she lives in another town, but i always wonder . . .what if.
then i fucking wake up
and realize where i am. and i'm very happy where i am. i wouldn't have it any other way. i don't what the "what if" life with her. what could of been. this is what is and what should be. the life i choose is the life i want. i chose to leave her behind. and behind is where she stays. i moved foward.
now thoughts of a new love keep me up at night. staring at the clock, i like where i am.
"The clock on the wall's moving slower
My heart it sinks to the ground
And the storm that I thought would blow over
Clouds the light of the love that I found "
-fool in the rain - led zeppelin